dxspyder
Nov 20, 2008, 08:40 PM
A lot of us browsing through these pages are probably facing heartbreak, I know I was when I first stumbled onto these pages. I just want to show my appreciation for those caring enough to reply to my threads and help me become who I am today.If your willing to read, I'm going to tell you my story... I'll try to keep it short.
Earlier this year, I faced my first heartbreak(not my first break up)... I was with this one girl for 2.5 years. I was 21 at the time and thoughts of marriage were present even at my young age. But as the cliché goes, all good things come to an end. And she initiated the break
I'm going to spare the details about the break up, but it left me devastated, hard time eating, stopped focusing on school, just barely going on with life with everyone asking is I was all right. Felt like my world just stopped and fell right on top of me... I asked her to come back,constantly wondered where she was and who she was with... text and emailed... etc... most of you probably know the feeling. I never thought id meet anyone else and thought that no one in the world experienced this pain.
I've never felt so helpless and... well, pathetic. So I started to date girls, met a lot of nice gals, but eventually I realized that it was more important to focus on myself and not a relationship I'm not ready to start. I got in great shape, loved my summer job, focused on school, and feeling the best I've ever had... but I still talked to her.
Yet my ex was still on my mind, most of the time... thinking that I still wanted to reconcile with her, I called her up, had lunch a few times and we both decide to have a second go at our relationship... tried for 2 months, but things had changed, damage was done, she was not into it and although I missed her, We called it quits mutually.
so I continued my life, feeling better knowing that our second chance didn't work out... I decide to start the dreaded no contact. A little bit over a month later I accidentally ran into a girl, the type that just catches your eyes and you can't look away, we talked nothing much. A few days past and I see her again... we joked, talked and what not, I got her number and started talking to her... She finished my jokes, knew lyrics to songs I thought no one liked, and, makes me laugh without even trying and showed so much compassion and was genuinely nice.
"there are girls like you in this world?"... I thought to myself... one morning I wake up and suddenly all those feelings I had for my ex had substantially faded... and those warm feelings was directed towards someone else. We've been dating for a month now things are great, but I still have these 'walls' and still scared to open up too much.
just the other night... ring... ring... ring... I pick up... its my ex. She gives me that whole "i not happy without you and things aren't the same"... first thing, SMILE! TAKE THAT, WHAT GOES AROUND COME BACK AROUND!! Right? Haha.. thats what I was thinking
But I just talked with her, told her I have a girlfriend and we shouldn't talk. And she immediately started interrogating me asking how I moved on so fast... even though its been 8 months. I told her I was happy again and told her to leave the past in the past.
So here I am, from heartbroken to... whatever the opposite of heartbroken is, haha
I have a terrific new girlfriend, my ex is merely an ex... Im excelling at school, walking around with 6pack abs, just financed a 2009 EVO X and have an interview for a dream job next week. And I can learn from my previous relationship and put it towards this one.
Most times, a breakup is a blessing in disguise... Just like all you people.
So I just wanted to take time to come here, share my story and tell all of you that everyday is a new day, the sun always rises and I promise that eventually things will work out as grime as they seem...
Thanks for reading and thanks again for everything.
If all else fails, try praying.
-Eddie :)
Earlier this year, I faced my first heartbreak(not my first break up)... I was with this one girl for 2.5 years. I was 21 at the time and thoughts of marriage were present even at my young age. But as the cliché goes, all good things come to an end. And she initiated the break
I'm going to spare the details about the break up, but it left me devastated, hard time eating, stopped focusing on school, just barely going on with life with everyone asking is I was all right. Felt like my world just stopped and fell right on top of me... I asked her to come back,constantly wondered where she was and who she was with... text and emailed... etc... most of you probably know the feeling. I never thought id meet anyone else and thought that no one in the world experienced this pain.
I've never felt so helpless and... well, pathetic. So I started to date girls, met a lot of nice gals, but eventually I realized that it was more important to focus on myself and not a relationship I'm not ready to start. I got in great shape, loved my summer job, focused on school, and feeling the best I've ever had... but I still talked to her.
Yet my ex was still on my mind, most of the time... thinking that I still wanted to reconcile with her, I called her up, had lunch a few times and we both decide to have a second go at our relationship... tried for 2 months, but things had changed, damage was done, she was not into it and although I missed her, We called it quits mutually.
so I continued my life, feeling better knowing that our second chance didn't work out... I decide to start the dreaded no contact. A little bit over a month later I accidentally ran into a girl, the type that just catches your eyes and you can't look away, we talked nothing much. A few days past and I see her again... we joked, talked and what not, I got her number and started talking to her... She finished my jokes, knew lyrics to songs I thought no one liked, and, makes me laugh without even trying and showed so much compassion and was genuinely nice.
"there are girls like you in this world?"... I thought to myself... one morning I wake up and suddenly all those feelings I had for my ex had substantially faded... and those warm feelings was directed towards someone else. We've been dating for a month now things are great, but I still have these 'walls' and still scared to open up too much.
just the other night... ring... ring... ring... I pick up... its my ex. She gives me that whole "i not happy without you and things aren't the same"... first thing, SMILE! TAKE THAT, WHAT GOES AROUND COME BACK AROUND!! Right? Haha.. thats what I was thinking
But I just talked with her, told her I have a girlfriend and we shouldn't talk. And she immediately started interrogating me asking how I moved on so fast... even though its been 8 months. I told her I was happy again and told her to leave the past in the past.
So here I am, from heartbroken to... whatever the opposite of heartbroken is, haha
I have a terrific new girlfriend, my ex is merely an ex... Im excelling at school, walking around with 6pack abs, just financed a 2009 EVO X and have an interview for a dream job next week. And I can learn from my previous relationship and put it towards this one.
Most times, a breakup is a blessing in disguise... Just like all you people.
So I just wanted to take time to come here, share my story and tell all of you that everyday is a new day, the sun always rises and I promise that eventually things will work out as grime as they seem...
Thanks for reading and thanks again for everything.
If all else fails, try praying.
-Eddie :)