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Nov 14, 2008, 06:44 AM
Hello There,
I am currently living in a situation where I am emotionally abused on a daily basis. I am living at home with my mother and sister and my child after a relationship breakdown. To the outside world I am confident and carefree. I am the one my friends come to for advice. The problem is my mother, career wise she is held in high esteem people look up to her.it's very stressfull. I have suffered from depression and panic attacks for most of my adult life. My mother never hit me until I was 17, and I probably deserved then. The thing is she is very insulting in the event of a row she will hurl insults referring to things I had done as a child how I have destroyed her life, how she wishes I was never born how I have cursed her life, How I dissapoint her what a terrible mother I am How she hates me, how I disgust her. I have sought help for my panic attacks etc in the past and was given medication she sneers at this and jeers me, she makes comments about my weight ( I put on a few extra pounds after the birth of my child). This living situation is really getting me down but financially I am stuck at the moment. Sometimes when she is really furious she will punch me try to choke me knock me down. She goes into a rage. I know this type of behaviour, is so wrong. The way she treats me really gets me down. I am so embarrassed I could never say it too my friends. Despite being so abusive towards me she depends on me for so much. She thankfully does not treat my sister like this. I cannot understand why she treats me this way when all I have done is support and stand up for her throughout my life. Can A mother hate their child so much?
I am currently living in a situation where I am emotionally abused on a daily basis. I am living at home with my mother and sister and my child after a relationship breakdown. To the outside world I am confident and carefree. I am the one my friends come to for advice. The problem is my mother, career wise she is held in high esteem people look up to her.it's very stressfull. I have suffered from depression and panic attacks for most of my adult life. My mother never hit me until I was 17, and I probably deserved then. The thing is she is very insulting in the event of a row she will hurl insults referring to things I had done as a child how I have destroyed her life, how she wishes I was never born how I have cursed her life, How I dissapoint her what a terrible mother I am How she hates me, how I disgust her. I have sought help for my panic attacks etc in the past and was given medication she sneers at this and jeers me, she makes comments about my weight ( I put on a few extra pounds after the birth of my child). This living situation is really getting me down but financially I am stuck at the moment. Sometimes when she is really furious she will punch me try to choke me knock me down. She goes into a rage. I know this type of behaviour, is so wrong. The way she treats me really gets me down. I am so embarrassed I could never say it too my friends. Despite being so abusive towards me she depends on me for so much. She thankfully does not treat my sister like this. I cannot understand why she treats me this way when all I have done is support and stand up for her throughout my life. Can A mother hate their child so much?