thirty-three
Oct 19, 2008, 10:13 AM
I'd avoided posting something like this online, simply because I thought I was handling this OK but I really don't know.
Basically 3 years ago I met a girl and instantly we because the best of friends, it was weird because she was 16 and I was 21 but that totally didn't matter. We hung out every day constantly inspiring each other which lead to us being in a band together, doing photography together, everything and eventually we ended up falling in love. Apart from a few people everyone was against us and I suppose it kind of made it more exciting that it was just the 2 of us. For me I've always liked girls but held back from getting too close because I truly believed I'd meet the perfect one for me and with her I did. I guess things started changing about a year and a half ago. I'd always called her beautiful but she never believed it until she became a model then all of a sudden she was invited to big parties, going to nice places and becoming very popular and I can admit I'm not the most exciting guy so inevitably she broke up with me. Her reasons were that she didn't feel the same and needed to be on her own which I could understand so I told myself I'd wait 6 months before trying to get her back and for all that time I was working on a thing that I believed would win her heart again. Basically it's a box with loads of stuff inside, I won't bore you with details but in 2 weeks it'll be 6 months and yesterday I found out she's started seeing someone. I can't stress enough how much I believe we're meant to be together but now that the new boyfriend has happened what do I do? I still want to go ahead with my plan because I've put too much into it but surely I'm just kidding myself if I think it'll work. I know this is such a cliché problem but for me it's new. My best friend (who is a girl) thinks I need to just try and move on but this ex has been in every important part of my life that whatever I think or do has had something to do with her, it just feels like if I'm not with her or trying to be I'm completely lost.
Any advice is appreciated.
Basically 3 years ago I met a girl and instantly we because the best of friends, it was weird because she was 16 and I was 21 but that totally didn't matter. We hung out every day constantly inspiring each other which lead to us being in a band together, doing photography together, everything and eventually we ended up falling in love. Apart from a few people everyone was against us and I suppose it kind of made it more exciting that it was just the 2 of us. For me I've always liked girls but held back from getting too close because I truly believed I'd meet the perfect one for me and with her I did. I guess things started changing about a year and a half ago. I'd always called her beautiful but she never believed it until she became a model then all of a sudden she was invited to big parties, going to nice places and becoming very popular and I can admit I'm not the most exciting guy so inevitably she broke up with me. Her reasons were that she didn't feel the same and needed to be on her own which I could understand so I told myself I'd wait 6 months before trying to get her back and for all that time I was working on a thing that I believed would win her heart again. Basically it's a box with loads of stuff inside, I won't bore you with details but in 2 weeks it'll be 6 months and yesterday I found out she's started seeing someone. I can't stress enough how much I believe we're meant to be together but now that the new boyfriend has happened what do I do? I still want to go ahead with my plan because I've put too much into it but surely I'm just kidding myself if I think it'll work. I know this is such a cliché problem but for me it's new. My best friend (who is a girl) thinks I need to just try and move on but this ex has been in every important part of my life that whatever I think or do has had something to do with her, it just feels like if I'm not with her or trying to be I'm completely lost.
Any advice is appreciated.