angel_in_love
Sep 24, 2008, 06:46 PM
I'm 18 and my ex boyfriend is 16(L) we were datin two years ago when we were both more immature and younger.at first things were good but after a while he started acting like not actually being in the relatinship.so we started fighting lying bla bla bla.but we were also having our good times too when he was really sweet and loveable.anyways.he broke up with 1,5 month later.after some days I asked him back but he said he didn't want to be with me.some months l8er I met someone new but finally didn't move on with him and some weeks l8er I told him that I wanted to talk with him.he wasn't really OK with the idea but he agreed.he never showed up(months l8er his childhood friend told me that he didn't want me but he didn't want to say it face to face so he wouldn't hurt me).a year after our break up I decided to move on.. I started hangin out with a lot of ges who adored me but we were just friends.what I really enjoed with them was the real attention from so many boys something that was missing from the one I really wanted.so finally three months later I stated dseeing someone new but I didn' like him that much so I stop.after a while I started talking on msn very often with my ex's best buddy.I dn't even remember how.he was really sweet and you can say that we became actually friends.we were rarely talking about L and when we did it was always him who started te conversation.the next 6 mnths and until now we're still talking and these six months I actually forgot about L.not at all but it just liked him and caed about him.during these months I met three guys.with the first one we were only dating but we didn't move on cause he was kind of stuck on his ex(the way I was with L)though I really liked him and had feelings for him.with the second one I was having a great time but I couldn't fall in love.we were together for a month and some days but I wasn't really into him.he was good but too emotional for a boy.the last week I cheated on him with someone I met on vacation.at first I didn't feel good about that but I couldn't put pressure on myself.the boy I met was so mr.perfect.he hd everything I wanted I had everything he wanted.we were together for lees than two weeks cause he lives 10 hours away with the bus from where I live so it couldn't work of course.so now two months later I'm facing a big situation for me.the big surprise an unexpected schock.I have to mention that this year me and L were going to the same sport and seeing each other almost every day.but we haven't even said more than 3-4 hi's.allmost all year long he was looking at me I was looking back bla bla bla... and this month this became an everyday thing.I always caught him starring at me and whenever I bumbed into him in the neighbourhood he was just looking straight in my eyes like he wanted to say something.I knew he would come back I could feel it.three days ago I made a big move... I sent him a message at his myspace saying the way I feel about him but all in a really sweet cute and self confident way if you know what I mean.nothing desperate nothing sad and of course I didn't say I love u.I told him in the end to follow his heart plus I asked for his msn.the next day I had a message with his msn.then I added him and we started talking.I could see the connection between us we were so adorabble with what we were saying but we didn't talk about us.we were just US and it was amazing.we were saying funny things and he was trying to take part in my life trying to make me get some decisions about some stuff.and anyway.at the same time his friend was sendeng me messages telling me to make a move cause L says bull just beacause he doesn't know how to flirt me(I have to mention that L I really shy with girls.too shy though with his friends and other people he I exactly the opposite.but he is a good person).finishing our conversation I asked him out... and he said yes but not today.. cause he doesn't even have enough money(that's true he speds the most of his allowance on fixing his motorbike.hehe)and then he asked me my cellphonenumberand also gave me his.this happened two days ago.he hasn't call yet.I know he will call me but I just want some piece of advice about all the situation.isn't it worth it after all of this time?and isn't it a big step for him acoording to the past two years that he never talked or anything?and how would I make him think it's worth it to this date?how would I keep him after all?cause tht's my actuall problem.I'm not having any big fears about the date cause I know him and know what he likes or not bla bla bla,but I want to keep him this time... my friends were really happy about how everything is now and believe he wants me though they used to hate him the first time we were together.