I dated this kid in 9th grade and it was the cutest puppy love and the best month of my life. Yeah we only dated for a month. But it was my fault, I don't know why but I always want him but once I have him I don't want him anymore. I get all confused and its not fair to him. We were on and off for about a year after that because we just couldn't get enough of each other. He was my first boyfriend and first kiss, I think that's why I can't get over him, the second time I broke up with him he was so hurt and I felt so bad that I had put him through that TWICE. I feel horrible about it to this day. But I still can't stop thinking about him but it really sucks because he has a girlfriend now and were really good buds and we tell each other everything, I think he gets a little too comftorable around me and starts to tell me everything about his new girlfriend.. and its hard. I want to be his friend more than anyting and I want him to feel like he can talk to me but it breaks my heart every time he starts talking about her.. I see him once and a while at school and I always want to tell him that I still like him but I don't want to rewin anyithng with his niew girlfiend because he dumped a girl for me one other time. I just don't want to rewin anyhting for him. But I wonder all the time if he still has feelings for me. He says he always will no matter what but still..

You became part of his life that's why you will always have a place in his heart. But... That doesn't mean that things will be the same again between the two of you. He grew up already. He changed so If I were you, I'll keep my distance and won't pretend to be a "friend" in hope that things will be the same again. If he likes you still, he already ditched his GF and came back to you.

Forget it! Find your own boy. You are still young. Bright things is still ahead of you and it doesn't end ont his guy.

Yeah you are right:)