I can't seem to get a hold of it in america and people look at me weird because I'm not one color I wish to be of one color I have already stated in some of my other questionsw that lots of people think I'm ugly...
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It's available in the US - where have you been looking?

It's also pretty dangerous stuff, not usually used for cosmetic purposes, leaves you sun sensitive for the rest of your life but maybe you already know that.

I have been looking online... do you have any suggestions on where I should look? Thank you.

i can't seem to get a hold of it in america and people look at me wierd because im not one color i wish to be of one color i have already stated in some of my other questionsw that lots of people think im ugly...
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You're not alone. Millions suffer from the same problem. It doesn't make you ugly.
Benoquin is very strong. Perhaps try out other products before you resort to benoquin? Bio Claire and Diana Stalder is a popular product amongst members from this site. Also, remember to use good quality sunblock everyday. Even if its cloudy, as UV rays still come through the clouds.

Thank you so much but I have tried those things but I guess people are different in there own way the only thing I haven't tried is benoquin how I heard of it was on the web and then I decided to do months of research I've been searching even on eBay but I realized it might be illegal to sell it on eBay so my last thought was a place sort of like this I origionally tried Yahoo answers but down the line I found this and I figured maybe someone here has axess or could give me a helping hand I have been praying.