I have no idea how to get over my mothers death, my life has been complicated, and I always thought it would get easier. Now I am almost nineteen, and I have fewer options than ever, and I live with my father, who I barely know. My mom died almost four years ago, and it still pains me to even think of her. I have no idea what I am doing here, and I really need to talk to someone, but my options are almost non-existent.

Is counseling an option? If you don't have any insurance, there should be local agencies that provide counseling on a sliding scale based on your income. If you are religious, talking to a church member may also help. I wish you well.