maximumeffect
Jul 6, 2008, 06:47 PM
I'm really scared... I don't know how to word this because I don't want to sound stupid.
I'll give it a shot anyway.
I'm 16 years old and when I started year 10 I started having anxiety issues regarding school and I would never go. The school obviously got involved and reintergrated me into school by means of a pastoral/guidance manager whom I became rather close to. The reason I stopped going to school was bullying. I was told by other girls in my class that I was too fat to go to school and thus, I stopped going. Although I was asked why I stopped going I would never tell anyone. I was afraid the guidance manager I was placed with would judge me. Just over a year ago I had a pretty bad argument with the guidance manager and I was stopped from working with her. This was hard for me because she was the only person I trusted. She was the only person I knew cared. She left a couple months later to go on maternity leave.
In July last year, I got placed on Fluoxetine for my depression and anxiety. As I wouldn't tell anyone how I was feeling and what was going through my head, a counsellor found this the best solution.
However, in October, my counsellor left, and nothing was put in place for me to see anyone else. I continued to receive my fluoxetine from the doctor, that being my only source of help; the fluoxetine that is.
A couple of weeks ago my mam went to get my repeat prescription but was told I couldn't have anymore until I had a review. I was under the impression that I was to come off fluoxetine gradually by lowering the dose but, I had to just simply stop. I now have nothing to help me. I can't talk to my friends because they say I don't need it and shout at me when I try to explain it to them.
It sounds stupid but since I have come off the fluoxetine, I feel myself slipping back to my old subdued self. I keep crying and wanting to hurt myself all the time. I just can't keep it together. I am still waiting for an appointment for a review to come through but the waiting list is long, it could be a while.
Until then I don't know what to do. I liked the new me, I was happy, made new friends and went out all the time.
Now I'm back to my old self, not being able to sleep till after 5am, crying, thinking about everything that happened back then.
I can't cope anymore and was hoping that maybe someone could give me some advice?
Thank you if you read this,
-Rebecca
I'll give it a shot anyway.
I'm 16 years old and when I started year 10 I started having anxiety issues regarding school and I would never go. The school obviously got involved and reintergrated me into school by means of a pastoral/guidance manager whom I became rather close to. The reason I stopped going to school was bullying. I was told by other girls in my class that I was too fat to go to school and thus, I stopped going. Although I was asked why I stopped going I would never tell anyone. I was afraid the guidance manager I was placed with would judge me. Just over a year ago I had a pretty bad argument with the guidance manager and I was stopped from working with her. This was hard for me because she was the only person I trusted. She was the only person I knew cared. She left a couple months later to go on maternity leave.
In July last year, I got placed on Fluoxetine for my depression and anxiety. As I wouldn't tell anyone how I was feeling and what was going through my head, a counsellor found this the best solution.
However, in October, my counsellor left, and nothing was put in place for me to see anyone else. I continued to receive my fluoxetine from the doctor, that being my only source of help; the fluoxetine that is.
A couple of weeks ago my mam went to get my repeat prescription but was told I couldn't have anymore until I had a review. I was under the impression that I was to come off fluoxetine gradually by lowering the dose but, I had to just simply stop. I now have nothing to help me. I can't talk to my friends because they say I don't need it and shout at me when I try to explain it to them.
It sounds stupid but since I have come off the fluoxetine, I feel myself slipping back to my old subdued self. I keep crying and wanting to hurt myself all the time. I just can't keep it together. I am still waiting for an appointment for a review to come through but the waiting list is long, it could be a while.
Until then I don't know what to do. I liked the new me, I was happy, made new friends and went out all the time.
Now I'm back to my old self, not being able to sleep till after 5am, crying, thinking about everything that happened back then.
I can't cope anymore and was hoping that maybe someone could give me some advice?
Thank you if you read this,
-Rebecca