I'm really scared... I don't know how to word this because I don't want to sound stupid.
I'll give it a shot anyway.
I'm 16 years old and when I started year 10 I started having anxiety issues regarding school and I would never go. The school obviously got involved and reintergrated me into school by means of a pastoral/guidance manager whom I became rather close to. The reason I stopped going to school was bullying. I was told by other girls in my class that I was too fat to go to school and thus, I stopped going. Although I was asked why I stopped going I would never tell anyone. I was afraid the guidance manager I was placed with would judge me. Just over a year ago I had a pretty bad argument with the guidance manager and I was stopped from working with her. This was hard for me because she was the only person I trusted. She was the only person I knew cared. She left a couple months later to go on maternity leave.
In July last year, I got placed on Fluoxetine for my depression and anxiety. As I wouldn't tell anyone how I was feeling and what was going through my head, a counsellor found this the best solution.
However, in October, my counsellor left, and nothing was put in place for me to see anyone else. I continued to receive my fluoxetine from the doctor, that being my only source of help; the fluoxetine that is.
A couple of weeks ago my mam went to get my repeat prescription but was told I couldn't have anymore until I had a review. I was under the impression that I was to come off fluoxetine gradually by lowering the dose but, I had to just simply stop. I now have nothing to help me. I can't talk to my friends because they say I don't need it and shout at me when I try to explain it to them.
It sounds stupid but since I have come off the fluoxetine, I feel myself slipping back to my old subdued self. I keep crying and wanting to hurt myself all the time. I just can't keep it together. I am still waiting for an appointment for a review to come through but the waiting list is long, it could be a while.
Until then I don't know what to do. I liked the new me, I was happy, made new friends and went out all the time.
Now I'm back to my old self, not being able to sleep till after 5am, crying, thinking about everything that happened back then.
I can't cope anymore and was hoping that maybe someone could give me some advice?
Thank you if you read this,
-Rebecca

You need to first be honest like Ihope you are here, with you mom and with a new couselor when you get one. Your mom needs to know about refills and needs to not allow you to get off your medication,

You have to also then be honest if they are or are not working propertly

Hi Rebecca,
When I was 18 I had issues similar to yours only the cause was different. I was depressed and anxious to the point where I wouldn't even leave the house. No-one understood and I was convinced I was a nut. I am 36 years old now and happy in myself. The cure... well... I know its easier said than done but you are your thoughts, your world is created by what you think. It becomes a vicious circle. It all stems back to your image of yourself and you need to learn that you are your best friend and you are the only person that can help yourself. It will take time, but all these things you are going through will, in the end, make you a truly compassionate person who is able to understand the needs of others. You will make it through. Another suggestion for you would be to get yourself onto some Magnesium supplements and take them every day. It is natures prozac.It made a world of difference to me. Next time you get a spare moment Google magnesium and depression.
Try not to be too hard on yourself, you really don't deserve it you need to look in the mirror and tell yourself that from today onward you will become your best friend. If you could only see into peoples minds, and read their thoughts you would realize that every single person in this world has an issue that hurts them, it's the way they handle it that makes the difference. Whether they can be their own best mate or not. You are not abnormal as there is really no such thing as normal, you are like everyone else, living life with ups and downs and trying the best they know how to get through. You are simply more emotional and sensitive. Do you REALLY care what these other girls think? Go look in that mirror girl. XO

I take L-theanine for my anxiety and St Johns Wart for lifting my mood.Until you have your review, you might want to consider those two supplements among others.

The L-Theanine I take is from a health food store and the brand is suntheanine.It works wonders for anxiety.It is my anti drug with no side affects.