Guys and girls,

Recently, very recently (as in a couple of days ago), I woke up from a long night's sleep and had forgotten... just forgotten. I found a letter on my desk telling me what I should do after I read it. I did as it said, but something seems missing in my life. I feel empty.

so here's basically what it said

Blah blah blah, call up this girl, blah blah blah as her to see you, blah blah blah take you to a special place (wasn't so special -.- at an a previous house I lived, currently no residents and has stayed that way for the past year or two), blah blah blah give her this letter, blah blah blah take her home.

All right here's the problem, why would I tell myself something like that, amnesia isn't something that can be caused purposely. I can barely remember what had happen in the past few months, maybe probably the past year or two. Bits and pieces but nothing of shocking revelation. That house has been abandoned for so long, still nice looking on the outside, but what I can't understand is why is it so cleaned on the inside.

Although I was very curious I never read what was in the letter. After that girl had read the letter, she somehow tried to sexually arouse me, but it wasn't something I wanted. After backing away I tried to talk and see what was going on, but that girl didn't tell me what was in the letter and just said, "blah blah blah I'm sorry, and be happy." "blah blah blah" after that I just didn't know what the $%#^ was going on. Took her home the first chance I get, got an amazing feeling though when she hugged me when I opened the door for her. I don't know what I should do, I'm really curious about what had happened, but the last thing that was said to me in my apparently "own" letter was, "blah blah blah if you went through this far to leave, why return?" and that's what stopped me. I haven't called that girl back neither have she called me back. What could have possibly happened and why? I'm really curious and really scared. Somehow I just can't stand this feeling of something mysterious out there that I can find out but choose not to. To sum this all up, I'm very intrigued about what had happened and afraid of what I find will not be what I want to remember. Also I feel loved around that girl and have been trying to make up as much excuse as I can to be with her, but I'm just too... afraid.

Also I found these few items on my desk one of it is a pair of glue sticks and has a note on it that says, "you're stuck with me," and two baby shoes, new in box, that also has a note on it saying, "Just in case something unexpected appears =), at least it's feet will be warm."

I'm still contemplating whether what I did as "I" told myself was a correct decision or not, but it's already history. Lets leave that behind for now and get to the matter at hand. Judging from the information given above should I or should I not try to figure out the truth, answer the following question seriously as though it has happened to you.

One more question, "If you were given two choice to either kill the one you love to save a thousand people, or kill a thousand people to save the one you love. Which would you choose?"
This is a or a B choice only, no in between, no C choice, no if this was to happen then A and if that was to happen than B. None of those BS (Not Bachelor of Science -.-) choices, just need a plain A choice OR B choice. =)

Thank you Girls and Guys in advance, I hope your answer would really help me.

Can you please simplify your question? Was this a dream, was part of it reality? It's really hard to follow what you're asking! And, why the question at the end? This is a very confusing post.