person00751
Jun 23, 2008, 06:04 AM
I've been taking adderall for about 3-4 months. Its about 10mg I usually take it once a day. I've had a little bit of depression problems since I was in 5th grade it was really bad then but it gradually got better over the last 4 years. At its worst I always got homesick and just had a constant sensation of hopelessness. Its not near as bad, but my point is I've had these issues way before the medecine. The adderall actually makes me feel better most of the time except sometimes, things happen that would normally just make someone a little sad but I obsess over it. Most of the time I just watch t.v. or clean the whole house or change something about my life like painting my room or getting a pet, y'know things to look farward to or occupy myself. I think that parts normal I mean I'm sure other people get a little.. bored/sad when they have nothing to do. It might also just be because I'm antisocial because when I'm at school I don't ever feel these problems. I obsess but there's always something else to think about. But its summer now and at first I wasn't taking the medecine but I got really depressed over little things. So my parents told me I could take one a day. I read a lot about the side effects and complaints and stuff and the only thing I'm worried about are the mental problems. I know what bad depression feels like and I don't want to start all over by getting addicted to this stuff or getting taken off it. And I know anti-depressants just make you a zombie. So I'm not sure how to fix my problems but it feels like taking adderall makes me not focus on negative things. I don't want to talk to my parents about this, because I'm afraid they will get worried and take me off it. So I'm already feeling like I need it. Can anyone give me some advice please?