NordyGal
Jun 21, 2008, 01:45 AM
Hello,
About two years ago, I got pregnant for the first time. I carried until I was 27 weeks along, and then delivered a stillborn baby girl. I was devastated, but went to counselling and now I'm as at peace with it as I can be.
Then, about a year ago, I got pregnant for the second time with twins. I carried until I was 20 weeks, and delivered stillborn baby girls. Again, I was devastated, but went to counselling and now I'm at peace with this, also.
Now, I've got the urge to be pregnant again. It could be because I've had the chance to become a mother twice before, but it didn't work out. It could be the fact that several of my friends are now expecting - and I'm jealous of it. I'm happy for them, but also heartbroken for the fact that I was so badly to become a mother.
I'm not the type to go off my birth control on my boyfriend, and I would never try to get pregnany unless he knew that and wanted it and agreed with that. [Not to mention, I can't get him to have sex with me, for anything... and I have another question posted about that -- "Boyfriend Won't Have Sex With Me". If you have advice regarding that, please see my other question and answer there.]
Any advice on the feelings I'm having? In the past, the feelings have come and gone - but they've been very present for about two months now.
About two years ago, I got pregnant for the first time. I carried until I was 27 weeks along, and then delivered a stillborn baby girl. I was devastated, but went to counselling and now I'm as at peace with it as I can be.
Then, about a year ago, I got pregnant for the second time with twins. I carried until I was 20 weeks, and delivered stillborn baby girls. Again, I was devastated, but went to counselling and now I'm at peace with this, also.
Now, I've got the urge to be pregnant again. It could be because I've had the chance to become a mother twice before, but it didn't work out. It could be the fact that several of my friends are now expecting - and I'm jealous of it. I'm happy for them, but also heartbroken for the fact that I was so badly to become a mother.
I'm not the type to go off my birth control on my boyfriend, and I would never try to get pregnany unless he knew that and wanted it and agreed with that. [Not to mention, I can't get him to have sex with me, for anything... and I have another question posted about that -- "Boyfriend Won't Have Sex With Me". If you have advice regarding that, please see my other question and answer there.]
Any advice on the feelings I'm having? In the past, the feelings have come and gone - but they've been very present for about two months now.