I just feel like I'm not good enough for her, and she deserves better, and I am being selfish by wanting to be with her, but at the same time I can't just let her go. I've had several girlfriends in my fairly short time on this earth (17 years) but this one girl has always been in my mind since I met her four years ago.

I just feel that my issues are really impairing my ability to consummate this relationship. Recently I've had insomnia because I start thinking about how I failed the day before and how much I want to be with her but can't, and I've lost over 15 pounds in less than a week and a half. Any help is greatly appreciated.

I'm a rational guy, and I'm willing to admit that I most likely have a mental problem of some kind, I just need some perspective here, and I really have no one else to talk to. Thank you :)

I just feel like I'm not good enough for her, and she deserves better, and I am being selfish by wanting to be with her, but at the same time I can't just let her go. I've had several girlfriends in my fairly short time on this earth (17 years) but this one girl has always been in my mind since I met her four years ago.

I just feel that my issues are really impairing my ability to consummate this relationship. Recently I've had insomnia because I start thinking about how I failed the day before and how much I want to be with her but can't, and I've lost over 15 pounds in less than a week and a half. Any help is greatly appreciated.

I'm a rational guy, and I'm willing to admit that I most likely have a mental problem of some kind, I just need some perspective here, and I really have no one else to talk to. Thank you :)
Honey, my daughter is 16, I understand. If she likes you, REALLY, then she's worth waiting for. But don't let her control your life. You should maybe talk to your parents. I KNOW But they will get it more than you know.

Hello,"Elijah 17"

When I read your question,I could see both positive and negative in it.
Notice that I mention positive first,as that's what you must focus on.

The positive,is that,this one girl has always been in your mind since you met her four years ago. That really does count for something!

I was really sorry to hear,that,you've had insomnia & that you're health is not
Good as a result of this. (this is the negative).

As you've known this girl all these years,I take it that you are able to talk to her.

You mention,in your question,that,you're a rational guy, so I would have a talk with
This girl,and take it from there :)