I was introduced to a gal by my roommate. She used to keep chattin with me fr long hours , kept me busy on phone for hours , usd to tel my roommate that she likes me . I startd getting attractd to her , n den I got a chance to visit her city . We dated for four days , n then las day while leaving I proposed her , n was fully confident of her yes , but she tol me bluntly that she dsnt feel fr me and I was not made fr her .
I left her city , then one o her friends tol me that she hd done this to many a boys , then I abused her badly , because I felt hurt of finding sumone played with ma feelings .
Bt since then dere has been a vacuum in ma life . One moment I feel like calling her up and abuse her badly , n next moment I start feeling that I still love her madly , I'm vry upset and this thing keeps hauntin me every second . I'm a pilot and this type of distraction can someday prove fatal , I tried my best but I cannot forget her , I love her as much as I hate her , what do I do to help me

You dated for 4 days and you proposed? No wonder why she took off for the hills, you aren't in love. Lust maybe, but definitely not love. You don't abuse someone you love, mentally or physically. You need to seek help for this, immediately. Never is it okay to abuse someone because they hurt you. Life is hard, you're going to get hurt, get over it. Leave this girl alone and get the help you and I both know you need.

What were you thinking? I agree totally with Romefalls. You don't abuse someone that you say you love. It's a good thing she did say no to you for her sake.

I don't know where to being. First of all, 4 days and you propose, she says no. Who can blame her? You hardly know each other, even though you have spoken a few times. Then you abuse her?! (Mentally and/or physically). Not good at all. Please, do yourself, your family, your friends and the passengers of your plane that you fly, and GET HELP! You cannot react to things not going your way, in this manner at all.

You really do need to get over this, and find other things in your life to do.