So, as a few of you know, I had a big crush on this guy, Chaz for a very long time. I guess I thought he loved me. Pshaw, what was I thinking? I mean I am the one who tells other people that many guys just say what we want to hear. THey usually have ulterior motives. But this time seemed different. It seemed like he would be my knight in shining armor who could sweep me off my feet and protect me. Well, I was wrong. He chose her and left me for nothing. That's why I never let people in. I guess he's the first guy I let near my heart in almost three years. It sucks when they steal your heart, rip it up stomp on it and then only give back half of it and keep the other part. So my question. Is it really bad that I am still hurting every time I think about him, Is it bad that I don't want to get up sometimes in the morning because I will think of him. Is it bad that I won't be able to let anyone else in for a very long time. Am I a bad person for wishing that someone could break his void where there should be a heart and it would leave him writhing in pain?
Is that really bad?

Know what, don't answer this question, don't even waste your time reading it, I already know the answer, I already know its going to hurt and I'm going to cry, but eventually, the hurt and the pain will go away,one day, soon, I will get over it and feel pity for him, he made the wrong choice, she doesn't love him, looking back, I don't think I did either, how can you love someone who is so willing and ready to throw you away, to just shove the whole everything in the trash? The answer is, you cant. And I don't, it is better not to let people in, then they can't hurt you in the end.