anongirl17
Jun 6, 2008, 02:43 AM
I appreciate that this won't work for everyone, but being a self harmer for three years I have finally found a way of stopping and I feel I have to share it.
I worked out that it's not the pain that makes me do it but it's seeing the blood. I've tried red pens but it's not realistic enough. I don't even know what made me do this, but the other day I took a blunt knife and dipped it in red food colouring before lightly stroking it across my arm. It left lines exactly like real wounds and I felt better straight away, just the same as when I did it for real. Now when I'm having a bad day I find myself reaching for the food colouring and blunt knife instead of a razor blade.
I'm so relieved that I can get the same relief as cutting gave me but without the danger and scarring. I hope it can help someone else too.
I worked out that it's not the pain that makes me do it but it's seeing the blood. I've tried red pens but it's not realistic enough. I don't even know what made me do this, but the other day I took a blunt knife and dipped it in red food colouring before lightly stroking it across my arm. It left lines exactly like real wounds and I felt better straight away, just the same as when I did it for real. Now when I'm having a bad day I find myself reaching for the food colouring and blunt knife instead of a razor blade.
I'm so relieved that I can get the same relief as cutting gave me but without the danger and scarring. I hope it can help someone else too.