I have never love anyone in my life more than my ex. I made the biggest mistake of my life when one night I was home and lonely and decided to browed the internet dating sites and joined and only sent a messages to her but I told her I had a girl, my girl found out and said it was over and ended the 2 year relationship because she said it was cheating, I never meet her and only visited the site 3 times.

My girl is someone I love because she is a real person and was always honest with me. The only problem was not she lived 40minutes away from me by car and sometimes I thought she might be seeing someone else,but deep down I knew she wasn't. I am a very insecure person and I damage a lot of friendship with her male friends because my ex wife cheated on me with her male friend while I was in the navy. I been divorce since 1997 and that's not an issue.

I am missing my ex and am doing things I never did by sending her flowers, candy, teddy bears, and cards with poems I write her. My mom love her and still communicate with but she won't with me. My tells me she not seeing anyone and she missing me but she not ready to see or speak to me. My mom and her talks and hangs out I leave her numerous of voice and text messages, but gets no response. I know I was wrong but I want her back and start over and I wish I was not so insecure, but after what my ex wife did, she left me feeling this way.

My ex also thought I had something going on with one of my female friend because my ex claims she like me and have no respect for her, but I told her she wrong and this was the reasons for a lot of our arguments.

I just want her back, do you think she will some back. I am really hurt by this and will do anything to get her back because I know I f*#k up. How much time you think she will need?

Thanks for answers, sorry it long! Anything missing just asked!

How did she find out?

If you really love her DON'T SIGN UP ON A DATING SITE!! She's rightfully angry at you and may never trust you again. You can grovel (suggested) but also don't crowd her. She's angry at you right now and if she feels pushed she may never give you a second chance.

How did she find out?

She found out because I forgot to close brower when she came over. I was not on there looking to meet anyone I was just bored and told the girl I had a girl but just looking talk and that's all. Since I never went back and on and never communicating to the girl again and want to make her see thatp

Take my advice, and leave her completely alone. No more begging or calling. Just get your act together for your own sake. Let her decide without any pressure from you, what she wants. Tell your mom to stay out of your business, politely of course.