bcoberly
Apr 28, 2008, 01:45 PM
Disclaimer: Yes, this story is long, but in typing it out I am able to clear my mind and hopefully some of you may be able to knock some sense in me.
About a month ago, I went to my friend "Jackie's" apt for a kickback, which was usually the only real reason I would go was to see if could talk to her roommate "Ashley." Originally at 1am Ashley called me on her friend's phone and told me to come over because they were drinking. So I drove over there and after hanging out with everyone a little bit and not having any expectations. I laid on the floor, feeling depressed about a former relationship and Ashley text messaged me saying "Stay the night, don't drive, I'll sleep on the floor and we can talk or if you don't want to that's ok." So after her neighbors left we ended up staying up to 11am talking about everything. She would text me here and there saying "I weas gorgeous and that she wanted me to lay next to her. So It seemed she was into me. I was pretty excited since I had my eye on her for awile and she had a great personality and I was extremly attracted to her. Well the next day, she text messaged me saying that she really wanted to see me again and asked when I could go to see her. So we ended up meeting up at her place and going to a store with her friend. While we were there just kept text messaging me, telling me how cute she thought I was and how she wished we could kiss. So we endedup going back to her place and I decided to leave because her roommate "Jackie" supposedly liked me too and might be kind of hurt that I wanted to stay over with Ashley. So Ashley and I decided to go for a drive where it seemed pretty clear at the time that she was into me. We hugged for awile and she kissed my neck. That night after I left, she texted me saying that she hoped she wasn't my rebound, and that she was really into me, but she might seem a little stand offish because she was scared of getting hurt. I told her I wasn't going to hurt her as long as we were honest with each other.
The next day I was pretty sick and stayed home from work, we texted a couple of times and it was just casual conversation. She said I was sweet and that I would be ok. The next morning, I was feeling kind of impatient with the fact that she didn't ever really call me and when I told her I missed her she just said "Dido" which seemed really impersonal to me. I was just kind of worried about it at the time, because I just got out a 3yr relationship and was already opening my heart this new girl, who actually told me that she would hurt me like my ex did. So I texted her in the morning that I confused as to why she didn't call me and that I didn't think she actually liked me. She texted me back saying that she was busy a lot, which is the truth but still, and that she did like me and I needed to call down about it. Well after not getting any text responses near the end of the day, I drank a little and drunk dialed her and told her to tell me if she really like me or not. To just be honest with me. Well she send me back a message saying that I was coming on too strong and that it scared her. So stupid me...I called her roommate and her roommate told her I called and she get even more scared about it. Well in the morning Ashley apologized about the whole thing and told me she "liked" me even though I came on strong. Well the next day we didn't text that much, and then the next morning after that I basically told her that she hurt me, because I wasn't trying to come too strong. Well she texted me later that day saying that she couldn't handle my texts anymore and that I should delete her number. So I was pretty hurt that what we had...whatever it was ended in just as much time as it started.
Well a couple days later, I saw that she had send me a reponse to an old comment on myspace, so I figured she must not be that mad. So I text messaged her "Hey" and she said "weird, I was just thinking about texting you." So after that we would casual text each other for a few days. She texted me asking if I could burn a cd for her and then bring it over. So I came over and we talked a little before work. I also learned that she said that she couldn't develop feelings for anyone, including me. During that week I saw her almost everyday. The next day, I was bad about my finacial situation which I was talking about with her roommate and then Ashley called me and told me to come over. I talked with a lot during that night. The next day I went with her to a bar with her friend and we a pretty good time, although I had gotten sort of jealous because I thought she was flirting with a guy, but she told me that she didn't like him and that if she was going to like anybody it was going to be me. Which I was thought was a weird thing to say to somebody who clearly still likes you. On Friday she had a party at her place so I went over there and hung out with all of them. We didn't really talk that much although we did take some pictures together and I got Jackie to drive me home and Ashley went along. She got sick on the way there and she seemed sort of mad at how long the trip was. The next day, I ended up going to a show that she was also going to with some other people. I told her that I was going and she called me and told me that she wanted to go with me, because the people she was going with flaked on her. Unfortunetly, we didn't pick her up for a reason, but at an acoustic show at a record store her friend came up to me and told me to call Ashley, because I guess apparently she was trying to get ahold of me to find out where I was. Stupid me though...as a joke I told her friend "meh, it's not like I like her anyway." This apparently made Ashley mad because she overheard me say it. It was clearly a joke. I thought this ment that she liked me at that time, but later on they said it made them upset because they thought I was trying to impress their roommates ex boyfriend who was in front of me. I wasn't. So later at the show, Ashley came up to me and starting flirting with me a little, and when I moved away from her during the show, she texted me saying "hang with me." So I spend most of the rest of the show rocking out with her and she seemed to be really into me. She told me she wanted me to come over and drink with them that night, so I left with them. We just spent a couple hours talking and then I crashed on their floor. In the morning, Ashley came out later and playfully slept on my back and played with my hair at various times during the morning. So that seemed pretty misleading. A few days after that, I went and hanged out with Jackie after work and as Ashley was getting ready for work she asked me why I though she was mean and said no reason. Well after she left she told me if I stayed I could sleep in her bed. Which I did. She also texted me asked if the only reason I liked was because we had never kissed. I said no, I like you because I can be myself around you. Then she she are you sure, because I have a feeling its because I haven't gave in and if I did you wouldn't feel the same. So I told her no, because I thought she was amazing girl and a kiss wouldn't change my mind on that either way. So in the morning she came home and took and shower and laid in bed with me and we talked a little and joked around with her friend who also stayed there. Well the next day, she overheard a conversation with me and her roommate in which I thought that Ashley was sort of jealous at the fact that diana would flirt with me a lot. Ashley then sent me a message telling me that she wasn't jealous and to not lie to Jackie and to not talk to her about her. So I called her and apologized. She then told me that she never really "liked" me in that way and only ever wanted to just be friends. So I got kind of upset about it, because I felt like she had basically played games with my heart the whole time. She just kept insisting that she had made it clear that we were only ever friends, even though I have texts that say the complete opposite. So in her frustration she hanged up on me and since last week we haven't talked. Her friend told me to give her time, that she was still sort of pissed off at me. It kind of sucks that put all the blame on her, but at the same time, it just seemed so deceitful how she acted around me. So at this point, I guess nothing with happen. She was been known to flirt with guys a lot, she just one of those girls. I guess I just thought that we had a deeper emotional connection. Consider me naïve. So yea any opinions on this would be valued!
About a month ago, I went to my friend "Jackie's" apt for a kickback, which was usually the only real reason I would go was to see if could talk to her roommate "Ashley." Originally at 1am Ashley called me on her friend's phone and told me to come over because they were drinking. So I drove over there and after hanging out with everyone a little bit and not having any expectations. I laid on the floor, feeling depressed about a former relationship and Ashley text messaged me saying "Stay the night, don't drive, I'll sleep on the floor and we can talk or if you don't want to that's ok." So after her neighbors left we ended up staying up to 11am talking about everything. She would text me here and there saying "I weas gorgeous and that she wanted me to lay next to her. So It seemed she was into me. I was pretty excited since I had my eye on her for awile and she had a great personality and I was extremly attracted to her. Well the next day, she text messaged me saying that she really wanted to see me again and asked when I could go to see her. So we ended up meeting up at her place and going to a store with her friend. While we were there just kept text messaging me, telling me how cute she thought I was and how she wished we could kiss. So we endedup going back to her place and I decided to leave because her roommate "Jackie" supposedly liked me too and might be kind of hurt that I wanted to stay over with Ashley. So Ashley and I decided to go for a drive where it seemed pretty clear at the time that she was into me. We hugged for awile and she kissed my neck. That night after I left, she texted me saying that she hoped she wasn't my rebound, and that she was really into me, but she might seem a little stand offish because she was scared of getting hurt. I told her I wasn't going to hurt her as long as we were honest with each other.
The next day I was pretty sick and stayed home from work, we texted a couple of times and it was just casual conversation. She said I was sweet and that I would be ok. The next morning, I was feeling kind of impatient with the fact that she didn't ever really call me and when I told her I missed her she just said "Dido" which seemed really impersonal to me. I was just kind of worried about it at the time, because I just got out a 3yr relationship and was already opening my heart this new girl, who actually told me that she would hurt me like my ex did. So I texted her in the morning that I confused as to why she didn't call me and that I didn't think she actually liked me. She texted me back saying that she was busy a lot, which is the truth but still, and that she did like me and I needed to call down about it. Well after not getting any text responses near the end of the day, I drank a little and drunk dialed her and told her to tell me if she really like me or not. To just be honest with me. Well she send me back a message saying that I was coming on too strong and that it scared her. So stupid me...I called her roommate and her roommate told her I called and she get even more scared about it. Well in the morning Ashley apologized about the whole thing and told me she "liked" me even though I came on strong. Well the next day we didn't text that much, and then the next morning after that I basically told her that she hurt me, because I wasn't trying to come too strong. Well she texted me later that day saying that she couldn't handle my texts anymore and that I should delete her number. So I was pretty hurt that what we had...whatever it was ended in just as much time as it started.
Well a couple days later, I saw that she had send me a reponse to an old comment on myspace, so I figured she must not be that mad. So I text messaged her "Hey" and she said "weird, I was just thinking about texting you." So after that we would casual text each other for a few days. She texted me asking if I could burn a cd for her and then bring it over. So I came over and we talked a little before work. I also learned that she said that she couldn't develop feelings for anyone, including me. During that week I saw her almost everyday. The next day, I was bad about my finacial situation which I was talking about with her roommate and then Ashley called me and told me to come over. I talked with a lot during that night. The next day I went with her to a bar with her friend and we a pretty good time, although I had gotten sort of jealous because I thought she was flirting with a guy, but she told me that she didn't like him and that if she was going to like anybody it was going to be me. Which I was thought was a weird thing to say to somebody who clearly still likes you. On Friday she had a party at her place so I went over there and hung out with all of them. We didn't really talk that much although we did take some pictures together and I got Jackie to drive me home and Ashley went along. She got sick on the way there and she seemed sort of mad at how long the trip was. The next day, I ended up going to a show that she was also going to with some other people. I told her that I was going and she called me and told me that she wanted to go with me, because the people she was going with flaked on her. Unfortunetly, we didn't pick her up for a reason, but at an acoustic show at a record store her friend came up to me and told me to call Ashley, because I guess apparently she was trying to get ahold of me to find out where I was. Stupid me though...as a joke I told her friend "meh, it's not like I like her anyway." This apparently made Ashley mad because she overheard me say it. It was clearly a joke. I thought this ment that she liked me at that time, but later on they said it made them upset because they thought I was trying to impress their roommates ex boyfriend who was in front of me. I wasn't. So later at the show, Ashley came up to me and starting flirting with me a little, and when I moved away from her during the show, she texted me saying "hang with me." So I spend most of the rest of the show rocking out with her and she seemed to be really into me. She told me she wanted me to come over and drink with them that night, so I left with them. We just spent a couple hours talking and then I crashed on their floor. In the morning, Ashley came out later and playfully slept on my back and played with my hair at various times during the morning. So that seemed pretty misleading. A few days after that, I went and hanged out with Jackie after work and as Ashley was getting ready for work she asked me why I though she was mean and said no reason. Well after she left she told me if I stayed I could sleep in her bed. Which I did. She also texted me asked if the only reason I liked was because we had never kissed. I said no, I like you because I can be myself around you. Then she she are you sure, because I have a feeling its because I haven't gave in and if I did you wouldn't feel the same. So I told her no, because I thought she was amazing girl and a kiss wouldn't change my mind on that either way. So in the morning she came home and took and shower and laid in bed with me and we talked a little and joked around with her friend who also stayed there. Well the next day, she overheard a conversation with me and her roommate in which I thought that Ashley was sort of jealous at the fact that diana would flirt with me a lot. Ashley then sent me a message telling me that she wasn't jealous and to not lie to Jackie and to not talk to her about her. So I called her and apologized. She then told me that she never really "liked" me in that way and only ever wanted to just be friends. So I got kind of upset about it, because I felt like she had basically played games with my heart the whole time. She just kept insisting that she had made it clear that we were only ever friends, even though I have texts that say the complete opposite. So in her frustration she hanged up on me and since last week we haven't talked. Her friend told me to give her time, that she was still sort of pissed off at me. It kind of sucks that put all the blame on her, but at the same time, it just seemed so deceitful how she acted around me. So at this point, I guess nothing with happen. She was been known to flirt with guys a lot, she just one of those girls. I guess I just thought that we had a deeper emotional connection. Consider me naïve. So yea any opinions on this would be valued!