truddy675
Apr 17, 2008, 12:01 PM
All time since I was very little I've been hanging out with a group of people, since I live in a small village and they settled down in the same neighborhood. These guys were my friends, we could hang out all day, we trained soccer everyday, and everything was joyful for at least 13 years.
Okay, this is my story which I'm a bit scared to tell, but here it goes. I was 14 at the time, and I was asked by some of my "buds" If I wanted to go out. I said no, because I fel too good. So the geniuses decided to go "spy" on me. At the age of 14, I was still curious about my body and such, like masturbating was new to me. So I was naked in my room, masturbating. I was always clever enough to cover my windows with curtains so no one could watch, but there was a small gap that night. So of course, they were outside my room "spying" on me.
After a while, I heard some noises outside my bedroom window. I heard laughs, and at that instant second I ran out of my room, put on my clothes and looked out 2nd floor window to try and see who it was. I knew now that someone had been watching me, and I felt humiliated. I saw no one when I looked out the window, and kept thinking about that the whole night. Was there really someone out there?
So the next day I was really scared to go to school, I said to my mother that I felt a bit sick, but she didn't fall for it. So I went to school like normal, and then all the people started looking at me. You know why? My "best buds" had taped me with their mobile cameras and showed the video around the school. And this is a small school, the only school in my little town, so basically rumors go around quickly.
I went through the whole day of school getting comments by everyone, and finally when I got home, and I went right to my bed and started crying. After that day, I stopped hanging out with them. I totally blocked them out, because I was furious.
So now, at the age of 17, I have no friends, whatsoever. I'm still in this town, I still get the comments, and I feel very, very lonely. Basically what I do is I sit down at my computer all day and do nothing. School > home > computer. That's my life. No one wants to hang out with me, and I sure as hell won't go hang out with any of these guys that did this to me.
So I'm just wondering what to do, because I feel like I'm such a no-lifer sitting at home all the time. You guys will probably say "go outside", but it isn't that easy! It's a small town, there's no place I can go without crashing into someone that goes to my school.
I just feel so... damn sad and furious at the same time.
Actually if you want to know, this is the first time I've talked about this anywhere. And I'm from Europe, I know this is an American website, but I thought this one was the most professional site out on the net.
I feel like an idiot writing this here, it's very personal to me, but I want to get others view on this.
*sorry for any spelling errors, english is my 3rd language
Help? :(
Okay, this is my story which I'm a bit scared to tell, but here it goes. I was 14 at the time, and I was asked by some of my "buds" If I wanted to go out. I said no, because I fel too good. So the geniuses decided to go "spy" on me. At the age of 14, I was still curious about my body and such, like masturbating was new to me. So I was naked in my room, masturbating. I was always clever enough to cover my windows with curtains so no one could watch, but there was a small gap that night. So of course, they were outside my room "spying" on me.
After a while, I heard some noises outside my bedroom window. I heard laughs, and at that instant second I ran out of my room, put on my clothes and looked out 2nd floor window to try and see who it was. I knew now that someone had been watching me, and I felt humiliated. I saw no one when I looked out the window, and kept thinking about that the whole night. Was there really someone out there?
So the next day I was really scared to go to school, I said to my mother that I felt a bit sick, but she didn't fall for it. So I went to school like normal, and then all the people started looking at me. You know why? My "best buds" had taped me with their mobile cameras and showed the video around the school. And this is a small school, the only school in my little town, so basically rumors go around quickly.
I went through the whole day of school getting comments by everyone, and finally when I got home, and I went right to my bed and started crying. After that day, I stopped hanging out with them. I totally blocked them out, because I was furious.
So now, at the age of 17, I have no friends, whatsoever. I'm still in this town, I still get the comments, and I feel very, very lonely. Basically what I do is I sit down at my computer all day and do nothing. School > home > computer. That's my life. No one wants to hang out with me, and I sure as hell won't go hang out with any of these guys that did this to me.
So I'm just wondering what to do, because I feel like I'm such a no-lifer sitting at home all the time. You guys will probably say "go outside", but it isn't that easy! It's a small town, there's no place I can go without crashing into someone that goes to my school.
I just feel so... damn sad and furious at the same time.
Actually if you want to know, this is the first time I've talked about this anywhere. And I'm from Europe, I know this is an American website, but I thought this one was the most professional site out on the net.
I feel like an idiot writing this here, it's very personal to me, but I want to get others view on this.
*sorry for any spelling errors, english is my 3rd language
Help? :(