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truddy675
Apr 17, 2008, 12:01 PM
All time since I was very little I've been hanging out with a group of people, since I live in a small village and they settled down in the same neighborhood. These guys were my friends, we could hang out all day, we trained soccer everyday, and everything was joyful for at least 13 years.
Okay, this is my story which I'm a bit scared to tell, but here it goes. I was 14 at the time, and I was asked by some of my "buds" If I wanted to go out. I said no, because I fel too good. So the geniuses decided to go "spy" on me. At the age of 14, I was still curious about my body and such, like masturbating was new to me. So I was naked in my room, masturbating. I was always clever enough to cover my windows with curtains so no one could watch, but there was a small gap that night. So of course, they were outside my room "spying" on me.
After a while, I heard some noises outside my bedroom window. I heard laughs, and at that instant second I ran out of my room, put on my clothes and looked out 2nd floor window to try and see who it was. I knew now that someone had been watching me, and I felt humiliated. I saw no one when I looked out the window, and kept thinking about that the whole night. Was there really someone out there?

So the next day I was really scared to go to school, I said to my mother that I felt a bit sick, but she didn't fall for it. So I went to school like normal, and then all the people started looking at me. You know why? My "best buds" had taped me with their mobile cameras and showed the video around the school. And this is a small school, the only school in my little town, so basically rumors go around quickly.
I went through the whole day of school getting comments by everyone, and finally when I got home, and I went right to my bed and started crying. After that day, I stopped hanging out with them. I totally blocked them out, because I was furious.

So now, at the age of 17, I have no friends, whatsoever. I'm still in this town, I still get the comments, and I feel very, very lonely. Basically what I do is I sit down at my computer all day and do nothing. School > home > computer. That's my life. No one wants to hang out with me, and I sure as hell won't go hang out with any of these guys that did this to me.
So I'm just wondering what to do, because I feel like I'm such a no-lifer sitting at home all the time. You guys will probably say "go outside", but it isn't that easy! It's a small town, there's no place I can go without crashing into someone that goes to my school.
I just feel so... damn sad and furious at the same time.

Actually if you want to know, this is the first time I've talked about this anywhere. And I'm from Europe, I know this is an American website, but I thought this one was the most professional site out on the net.
I feel like an idiot writing this here, it's very personal to me, but I want to get others view on this.
*sorry for any spelling errors, english is my 3rd language

Help? :(

progunr
Apr 17, 2008, 12:27 PM
That is a tough one, I'm sorry you have to deal with it.

I know this probably won't help much, but, everyone that is laughing at you, is going home to masturbate too. You are not alone when it comes to that.

Dealing with these buttholes is another issue all together.

I'm usually quick with some solid advice but your situation has left me wondering myself the best way to work through this very embarrassing situation and I have not been able to come up with anything.

I even asked myself, what would I do, and the answer matches your current situation, feeling like I need to hide forever. There must be something, I just can't think of it yet.
Lets see what advice others may have, and I'll keep working on it.

I do feel for you man, sorry about your luck on this one!

Romefalls19
Apr 17, 2008, 12:42 PM
Huh... Well there are some possible courses of action we can take here.

First, Bulk up! Take up some weight lifting regiments, get bigger and just focus on that.

Second, take the high road and try and think... You're almost 18, which means you can leave that town and them behind.

Third, just knock one of those kids out... Usually once you stand up to one bully, they all kind of back off. I am in NO WAY promoting violence, but like I've been told before. You can only be pushed so many times before you need to push back

nickshehe
Apr 17, 2008, 01:18 PM
Dude everyone jacks off so its nothing to be humiliated about.. Obviously your "friends were d*cks for doing that to you, but you could have laughed it off, boys will be boys..
(hah which reminds me this one time this friend of mine was drunk and passed out on the beach and we drew this huge pen*s on his back with sun block , ..so he walked around the whole summer with a huge pen*s drawing on his back..it was so funny)..
ANYWAY..like Rome said, you're nearly 18 and you can go off to college or uni or whatever and you'll leave that place behind..
To be fair though it's been 2-3 years since that happened to you..you could always try and approach a group of people its never too late, and its actually an attractive thing if you're able to laugh at yourself..in the sense of "hah rememember when you guys videotaped me doing so and so... you bastar*s e.t.c" in a joking manner..
I don't think you should kick their it's a little late for that..
Anw if you're in england and anywhere near nottingham you're free to hang out with me little buddy.

DazT
Apr 17, 2008, 02:11 PM
All right mate, I'm 17 too and you know at this age, if your friends are taking the piss out of you, you just have to take the piss out of them back and laugh at the jokes they say to you. Don't give them a reaction... and laugh about it yourself.

Next time someone says it to you, say "So you trying to say you don't masturbate?", they'll be dumbstruck! Take life less seriously mate, just get on with it and try to make some friends.

talaniman
Apr 17, 2008, 05:55 PM
Never let them see you sweat. Learn to laugh at yourself, and diffuse their fun. Truth is, they do the same as you, and all of us, so what's the big deal. You just need that good comeback line, as Daz says.