hermione
Mar 6, 2008, 04:53 PM
I am 28 years old, have a wonderful husband, a good job (for now) and our financial situation is getting better. My problem is that I have a thing that whenever something good happens, I feel like something is going to come along and take it away. If I have a really good weekend, I worry about Monday because that means I will have a bad week at work. I basically "what if" myself into panic. My mother was recently diagnosed with lung cancer and after the crying and the fear of her dying, I am what iffing about if she goes terminal, will I have to quit my job and move back to Florida? What if a HUGE hurricane hits while I am there taking care of her and we are homeless? Would my husband be able to take care of things while I am away? Keep in mind that none of this has even come to pass. If we do have financial bumps in the road, I always flash to being homeless or if I buy something at the store I say "Well what if I lose my job? and I am buying this" My husbands Grandfather recently passed and I was worrying about dying young because I am overweight so I started on a vitamin regimen. I am taking multi vitamins and fish oil for heart health and then I thought "what if the 2 react and my vitamin regimen kills me?" I cannot let myself just go with the flow and I want to be that way, but I think my brain is broken.
Am I nuts? Do I need meditation or therapy? Any input would help :eek:
Am I nuts? Do I need meditation or therapy? Any input would help :eek: