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Feb 29, 2008, 10:52 PM
Hi, I have been married to my husband for 21 years. He is hardworking, reliable, generous and kind... at work.
At home he is domineering, controlling, unreasonable and a bully.
Our relationship has always seen me in a servile role. I adopt this role to keep the peace.
I almost feel he enjoys seeing me downtrodden and unhappy. I feel as if he has a need to punish me although I have never given him any cause or reason to treat me this way.
In the past we have seen a relationship counsellor and for a while things improved. It seemed as if opening up to someone else about how he makes me feel when he treats me this way made it somehow real and important The good hubby didn't last very long though and now I am at my wits end. We have teenager who loves both of us equally although has witnessed a lot of the abuse directed toward me.
Can someone offer any advice?
I am hoping someone may feel an insight into his behavior. He says he loves me one day but the next day he is back to the bullying. His mother and apparently his grandfather (deceased) both have the same personality traits. I have tried many times to put distance between us but every time he refuses to be reasonable which results in me having no means at all of supporting our daughter and myself so I stay put and feel trapped until the next time I feel I cannot live like this any longer.
I just don't know what to do, he has total control over everything I do or want to do. Without his permission I'm not allowed a voice or an opinion.
Thanks for taking the time to read this and I would greatly appreciate any guidance
Cjh
At home he is domineering, controlling, unreasonable and a bully.
Our relationship has always seen me in a servile role. I adopt this role to keep the peace.
I almost feel he enjoys seeing me downtrodden and unhappy. I feel as if he has a need to punish me although I have never given him any cause or reason to treat me this way.
In the past we have seen a relationship counsellor and for a while things improved. It seemed as if opening up to someone else about how he makes me feel when he treats me this way made it somehow real and important The good hubby didn't last very long though and now I am at my wits end. We have teenager who loves both of us equally although has witnessed a lot of the abuse directed toward me.
Can someone offer any advice?
I am hoping someone may feel an insight into his behavior. He says he loves me one day but the next day he is back to the bullying. His mother and apparently his grandfather (deceased) both have the same personality traits. I have tried many times to put distance between us but every time he refuses to be reasonable which results in me having no means at all of supporting our daughter and myself so I stay put and feel trapped until the next time I feel I cannot live like this any longer.
I just don't know what to do, he has total control over everything I do or want to do. Without his permission I'm not allowed a voice or an opinion.
Thanks for taking the time to read this and I would greatly appreciate any guidance
Cjh