newtribemember
Feb 15, 2008, 09:23 AM
I'm getting out of a horrible relationship.
Background: We fought while dating, he didn't trust me. He went on medication (he's bi-polar) and it was improving when he proposed. We fought about everything under the sun while engaged, and postponed the wedding only to put it back on course when my family went through a major crisis and he was there for me. I clinged to the only shred of stability I thought was around and got married for all the wrong reasons. Our problems were numerous: he was jealous, posessive, controlling. Verbally abusive, angry, drank too much (which didn't mix well with the aforementioned meds). We were in marriage counseling less than 2 months after we got married and deep down I knew the marriage wouldn't work. I completely hid myself for a while. I don't want to say lost because I am a very strong independent person and know exactly who I am and what I stand for and why I stood for his crap I'll never figure out. Needless to say the marriage was over way before I filed for divorce. Two weeks after I file for divorce (and move out) I get introduced to a wonderful guy by some mutual friends. He's trying to get custody of his kids, so needless to say we've both been going through a rough time recently and it's been a while since either of us has been happy. We are taking things very slow, I don't want to be intimate until at least after my divorce is final, and he is completely understanding and respectful of this. We are just enjoing eachothers company and the fact that we make each other so unbelievably happy.
My issue is this... I keep reading about the "rebounding" issues pertaining to divorce but I don't think they apply here. I grived, cried, mourned, got mad and then got over my marriage before I started the paperwork. I made my decision not based on any one incident that happened, but when I finally said enough was enough and it was over. I am not some angry shrew, but have been looking forward to finally (emphasis on finally) getting to move on with my life. I only stayed as long as I did not out of love, but because it was a marriage. But I don't think I was ever truly in love with him. Everything I read pertaining to rebounding doesn't seem to fit here except for the timing issue, but I'm one that thinks that if its right, its right.
Any thoughts?
Background: We fought while dating, he didn't trust me. He went on medication (he's bi-polar) and it was improving when he proposed. We fought about everything under the sun while engaged, and postponed the wedding only to put it back on course when my family went through a major crisis and he was there for me. I clinged to the only shred of stability I thought was around and got married for all the wrong reasons. Our problems were numerous: he was jealous, posessive, controlling. Verbally abusive, angry, drank too much (which didn't mix well with the aforementioned meds). We were in marriage counseling less than 2 months after we got married and deep down I knew the marriage wouldn't work. I completely hid myself for a while. I don't want to say lost because I am a very strong independent person and know exactly who I am and what I stand for and why I stood for his crap I'll never figure out. Needless to say the marriage was over way before I filed for divorce. Two weeks after I file for divorce (and move out) I get introduced to a wonderful guy by some mutual friends. He's trying to get custody of his kids, so needless to say we've both been going through a rough time recently and it's been a while since either of us has been happy. We are taking things very slow, I don't want to be intimate until at least after my divorce is final, and he is completely understanding and respectful of this. We are just enjoing eachothers company and the fact that we make each other so unbelievably happy.
My issue is this... I keep reading about the "rebounding" issues pertaining to divorce but I don't think they apply here. I grived, cried, mourned, got mad and then got over my marriage before I started the paperwork. I made my decision not based on any one incident that happened, but when I finally said enough was enough and it was over. I am not some angry shrew, but have been looking forward to finally (emphasis on finally) getting to move on with my life. I only stayed as long as I did not out of love, but because it was a marriage. But I don't think I was ever truly in love with him. Everything I read pertaining to rebounding doesn't seem to fit here except for the timing issue, but I'm one that thinks that if its right, its right.
Any thoughts?