torifan1977
Jan 30, 2008, 08:22 AM
My boyfriend and I broke up on Christmas. He had surgery done several weeks before but did not want me to see him like that but Christmas all of a sudden he wanted me to come see him and I had plans with my family. YEs I know I should have gone but I had neglected to tell him that the guy that raped me had come into my work the night before and it just upset me so much I had to spend it alone. Ididn't want to but Christmas Day I took anger out on him that was meant for that guy. So we broke up in the argument. I needed time to clear my head after all I was emotionally a mess. So I waited until Dec 31 to call and he did not answer. I saw him online and he seemed mad at me and said he didn't want to see me again.
I was so upset. I just wanted some time to clear my head and he was telling me that it was over. I called him Jan 1st to wish him happy birthday and no answer. That week was horrible. I honestly thought I was having a miscarriage which I did not even know I was pregnant and passed a huge clot of blood. Of course I call my ex freaking out and he was kind enough to be there for me and called me the whole time. I found out later after many tests and ultrasounds that I have a huge functional cyst in my ovary which if does not shrink I may lose the ovary. I never got to tell him this because he caught pneumonia and I kept trying to go see him to see if he was OK but he would not anser the phone and then yelled at me. I kept calling make it worse and hoping but eventually gave up after two weeks. Then this past Friday I was driving and saw his car. I know he saw me cause he switched into the opposite lane I was in the left he got into his left and it seemed he was trying to get my attention. I turned around and went back and there he was again going the opposite direction in the left lane. I turned around again and there he was again the same thing this all happened within about 5 minutes. I finally parked the car in a store parking lot I figure neutral territory and he pulled into the shopping center to turn into the store and then couldn't get in after 3 minutes I was looking out the window again while checking out and he was pulling away. Sunday someone who works for his store came in to get a computer.
I need to know what to do. I have some stuff of his and need to explain things to him but I don t know how to do it.. He lives with his mother to help keep their exspenses down they own a business together. I miss hiim so much and I feel him missing me at times too. I used to sneak into his house at night but he would always turn all the lights off and leave a light on his car so I could 1. come over and 2. see he was not cheating...
I love this man with all my heart and I know I could have been more loving and shown him more of how I felt and I held back and pushed him away. I want to make an effort to make the relationship all it can be and without fear love this man the way I truly love him . I know he loves me too he told me that he loves me dearly but doesn't want to get hurt again. That was when we talked during the m/c supposed crisis. WHat do I do how do I get to hiim . Do I sneak in to see him. He has been leaving the lights off and the car lght on like he used to now...
ALso I failed to mention that we were apart for three years and he chased me down until last year near my birthday he came into where I work and chased me through the store until he finally just waited for me at my station. HE apologized for pain in the past an d wanted to try again and said that he was dreaming of me for all three years. I know that he loves me we were together this time for almost a year and I know I made mistakes and messed up.. he did too.. but I feel that I just need the chance to prove to him that it will be diffferent.
I was so upset. I just wanted some time to clear my head and he was telling me that it was over. I called him Jan 1st to wish him happy birthday and no answer. That week was horrible. I honestly thought I was having a miscarriage which I did not even know I was pregnant and passed a huge clot of blood. Of course I call my ex freaking out and he was kind enough to be there for me and called me the whole time. I found out later after many tests and ultrasounds that I have a huge functional cyst in my ovary which if does not shrink I may lose the ovary. I never got to tell him this because he caught pneumonia and I kept trying to go see him to see if he was OK but he would not anser the phone and then yelled at me. I kept calling make it worse and hoping but eventually gave up after two weeks. Then this past Friday I was driving and saw his car. I know he saw me cause he switched into the opposite lane I was in the left he got into his left and it seemed he was trying to get my attention. I turned around and went back and there he was again going the opposite direction in the left lane. I turned around again and there he was again the same thing this all happened within about 5 minutes. I finally parked the car in a store parking lot I figure neutral territory and he pulled into the shopping center to turn into the store and then couldn't get in after 3 minutes I was looking out the window again while checking out and he was pulling away. Sunday someone who works for his store came in to get a computer.
I need to know what to do. I have some stuff of his and need to explain things to him but I don t know how to do it.. He lives with his mother to help keep their exspenses down they own a business together. I miss hiim so much and I feel him missing me at times too. I used to sneak into his house at night but he would always turn all the lights off and leave a light on his car so I could 1. come over and 2. see he was not cheating...
I love this man with all my heart and I know I could have been more loving and shown him more of how I felt and I held back and pushed him away. I want to make an effort to make the relationship all it can be and without fear love this man the way I truly love him . I know he loves me too he told me that he loves me dearly but doesn't want to get hurt again. That was when we talked during the m/c supposed crisis. WHat do I do how do I get to hiim . Do I sneak in to see him. He has been leaving the lights off and the car lght on like he used to now...
ALso I failed to mention that we were apart for three years and he chased me down until last year near my birthday he came into where I work and chased me through the store until he finally just waited for me at my station. HE apologized for pain in the past an d wanted to try again and said that he was dreaming of me for all three years. I know that he loves me we were together this time for almost a year and I know I made mistakes and messed up.. he did too.. but I feel that I just need the chance to prove to him that it will be diffferent.