Ever have that feeling where your just kind of blank but your thinking about things that you miss and how you can get them back. Your wondering what all happened. And you just kind of feel like your back in the past but your not. Your only imagining it to be happy.
I guess that's the only way I can explain it.
But I want to know a word to describe that feeling.

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Why aren't you in school, beth?

Another word is nostalgia.

déjà vu is close

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Another word is nostalgia.^^ I'll change my answer this. :)

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I got suspended.

For what? For how long?

Tardies. 2 days.

The last thing you need is a suspension.

Why not get your act together and finish high school in a blaze of glory?

Ha. I need a break. And why's it matter? Ive already mesed my grades up too bad to ever make it into a college. There's no options for me. I can't and wouldn't go in the military.

If I lived closer and knew you, I would take you under my wing as a foster child. You definitely need a tutor and a cheerleader.

I'm not talking about college. I'm talking about a legit h.s. diploma so you don't end up in dead-end jobs and later having to slog around to get your GED.

I can't stand all the stress from school.. all it takes is one day and the suffering last for weeks. I'm not like other people. And I need to ask to never talk about school with me again, please. It just makes me really angry

Well, that's too bad. Your anger is not appropriate. Your future is.

I still don't understand what stress there is.

Just the thought of it is enough.

Being in a school all day with people you can't stand and can't stand you. There's no escape. It's not like a job where you can just quit or go somewhere else. Your forced to go their all day when 65% of an average school day is wasted. I figured that out one day.

I see. So not only are you ducking out of school, but you have no intention of sticking with a job either.

You're wrong about the wasted day.

You know how they say "live every day like it's the last" or whatever...
Why try in school if I may not live long enough to even graduate.
I don't do things if I don't have to or if theirs no point unless it has to do with music or J.
So I do nothing all day but listen to music and wait for him to talk to me

But you will live long enough to graduate.

Do you really want to be a loser? That certainly won't keep J around.

Hes the one that turned me into one.

No, he didn't. You did it to yourself.

Well, there is always local college, go into an apprenticeship or skill training session, I'm sure that will help a bit. But you can always redo your SATS and exams to re-enter university.

Tardies. 2 days.

Does anyone else see the irony in getting a suspension for cutting class?


You know how they say "live every day like it's the last" or whatever...
Why try in school if i may not live long enough to even graduate.
I don't do things if i dont have to or if theirs no point unless it has to do with music or J.
So i do nothing all day but listen to music and wait for him to talk to me

Live every day in a way that makes you happy. But from the sound of things you aren't happy now. You're just waiting for happiness to find you. That saying is meant to encourage people to make the most of their lives. Everyone wants you to live in the present, but that doesn't mean you should discard the future. And it's very unlikely that you won't live to graduation time... whether you graduate or not is up to you. Everyone has problems in school, but it gives you a chance for a much more fulfilling (not to mention easier) future.

Take care of yourself,

Kal

Lets see... he pretty much won't talk to me unless I'm just like him,
By the way, do you really think he'll ever talk to me again?

If you handle it the way we've told you to. But I know you can't be bothered.

? I'm really confused.
Someone who says they are a paranormal investagator said that J is just possessed. And tried telling me what to do to change it... only thing is... I don't believe in demons or anything. He said I had to have faith for it to work.

That's not what others have told you.

Depending on who I go to... people always tell me something different.
Some people tell me he's using me, he'll never care, he does care, and about anything you can think of.

I mean here. You have been told to ignore him and treat him like anyone else by being polite and walking away. You refuse to listen to us who have tried it and found out how well it works.

I refuse to listen to you?
I guess the reason iv'e been ignoring him and haven't said a word to him since last Friday is just because I don't like him then. (sarcastic)

You keep reporting that you talk with him and email him and talk on the phone with him.

I haven't takled to him since he called at 6:55 pm on jan. 18th
Not 1 word. And he deleted his e-mail (or so he said)
I can only talk to him at school and I won't unless he talks to me... I'm afraid to. He's like a stranger to me

You posted this on the 19th -- "Iv'e been thinking about getting my hair cut. he wanted me to let it grow out BUT... I can't stand it being so long and i talked to him on the phone today..."