kitty-kat19
Dec 17, 2007, 04:21 PM
:confused: :( Ok. So my Boyfriend that I'd been dating for almost 7 months broke up with me about 12 days ago. I've let go as much as I can, I won't deny that I'm still angry at him for the way he acts/ed towrds me, but I'm not really hurting anymore, I miss the things he did but not him.
Latley I've been doing a bunch of stupid stuff, because everything has been going wrong and its so much easier to just numb out with adrinaline... (which is my ONLY drug of choice), I slept with one of my exs, fooled around with my best friends brother, and have been IM'ing my ex's best friend off and on.
I know that I stepped over the line with my ex and bestfriends brother, they're both taken and even though I HATE being the other woman because that makes me trashy at that particular point in time I just really didn't care. They're not really my delima, I can handle that (I hope). However, my ex's best friend is the problem. A few nights ago we were IM'ing back and forth like we do sometimes, but we were talking and I said that I was home alone and he offered to come over the next day and I said OK... I figured I knew what he wanted but he wasn't going to really get any where... but then we kept talking and he told me what he wanted and I asked him why and he's like because I like you... and he told me that the reason he was pissed when I first started dating his friend was because he likes me. And I asked him how much and he used a line on me something about I would walk over a thousand miles to be with you... and I don't know how we got on the sub. But we started talking about either why he likes me or something anyway he said because I'm the complete opposite of him and then we started talking about a bunch of other stuff... partly about how I don't think I'll get married and why and him saying yes you will and I don't know... I was all on board with this and then out of no where he says if we do do anything, we can't tell anyone, because it'll get around to him (meaning my ex). So I don't know... he ended up not coming over and he hasn't really said anything to me at school but he gives me these peircing looks... im just not sure what to do and I'm not sure why it matters whether my ex finds out... he dumped me. In case you hadn't been able to tell I think I'm starting to like my ex's best friend... he got all of my ex's good quatlities a couple of his bad ones and he's got one quality that most don't appretiate but if you've been lied to like I have brutal bluntness and I am who I am is extremely comforting... I know he doesn't usually say things he doesn't mean... I just do not know what to do...
Latley I've been doing a bunch of stupid stuff, because everything has been going wrong and its so much easier to just numb out with adrinaline... (which is my ONLY drug of choice), I slept with one of my exs, fooled around with my best friends brother, and have been IM'ing my ex's best friend off and on.
I know that I stepped over the line with my ex and bestfriends brother, they're both taken and even though I HATE being the other woman because that makes me trashy at that particular point in time I just really didn't care. They're not really my delima, I can handle that (I hope). However, my ex's best friend is the problem. A few nights ago we were IM'ing back and forth like we do sometimes, but we were talking and I said that I was home alone and he offered to come over the next day and I said OK... I figured I knew what he wanted but he wasn't going to really get any where... but then we kept talking and he told me what he wanted and I asked him why and he's like because I like you... and he told me that the reason he was pissed when I first started dating his friend was because he likes me. And I asked him how much and he used a line on me something about I would walk over a thousand miles to be with you... and I don't know how we got on the sub. But we started talking about either why he likes me or something anyway he said because I'm the complete opposite of him and then we started talking about a bunch of other stuff... partly about how I don't think I'll get married and why and him saying yes you will and I don't know... I was all on board with this and then out of no where he says if we do do anything, we can't tell anyone, because it'll get around to him (meaning my ex). So I don't know... he ended up not coming over and he hasn't really said anything to me at school but he gives me these peircing looks... im just not sure what to do and I'm not sure why it matters whether my ex finds out... he dumped me. In case you hadn't been able to tell I think I'm starting to like my ex's best friend... he got all of my ex's good quatlities a couple of his bad ones and he's got one quality that most don't appretiate but if you've been lied to like I have brutal bluntness and I am who I am is extremely comforting... I know he doesn't usually say things he doesn't mean... I just do not know what to do...