charlyjefferis
Nov 27, 2007, 12:30 PM
I need your help please,
I am 22 and I don't see my father due to him being an alcoholic and a lot of emotional abuse. When I was just 4 years old I saw him push my mum own the stairs when she was pregnant with my sister. He only ever hit me once and gave me a black eye!
My mum used to pick him up from the police station quite a lot. He used to have visiting rights when we were younger and I used to see him every other weekend. He used to turn up at my mums house drunk and start to argue with my mum and hit her in front of me and my sister. I used to try and protect both of them but I used to get made to feel I'm the bad one by him. But could never tell him how I felt due me being afraid of losing him. I loved him so much.
He used to say he was coming to pick me up and never turn up and would go missing for years and I would never hear from him! When I was in school he used to ring me up and tell me he was going to committ suicide by hanging himself he is very good at making out what he is doing my fault. He would tell me all the time that I was a crap daughter when he was drunk. I feel so guilty for him being the way he is. He has no family other than me and my sister, he was adopted when he was younger.
HE told me that my godfather committed suicide but he didn't. He would send me letters and bithday cards making me feel guilty because I never send him any. He used to turn up to my mums house drunk and come upstairs to my room and sit on my bed and wake me up and talk crap to me when I had school the next day.
Why is it that I can't tell him how I really feel? How much his hurt me? I have had years of councilling due to him but it effects my life, relationship with men and my job.
Last time I saw him was 3 years ago and he got drunk and told me to off in front of a restaurant. He can't admit his in the wrong yet I feel sorry for him, imy mum hates me seeing him or even talking to him. He used to emotionally blackmail me into seeing him.
He has just text me telling me he is ill and has a year to live I don't know what to do. He is a compulsive liar and I don't know if to believe him, but I don't want to not see him and feel guilty knowing he has no-one. What to I do?
He is very good at what he goes making me feel so bad, I put up with it for most of my life and don't know anything different. I used to me stuck in the middle of arguments with my parents and get physically pulled with my mum on one arm and my dad on the other. I am starting to have coucnilling again as I can't handle it anymore.
Please help me ease my mind
I am 22 and I don't see my father due to him being an alcoholic and a lot of emotional abuse. When I was just 4 years old I saw him push my mum own the stairs when she was pregnant with my sister. He only ever hit me once and gave me a black eye!
My mum used to pick him up from the police station quite a lot. He used to have visiting rights when we were younger and I used to see him every other weekend. He used to turn up at my mums house drunk and start to argue with my mum and hit her in front of me and my sister. I used to try and protect both of them but I used to get made to feel I'm the bad one by him. But could never tell him how I felt due me being afraid of losing him. I loved him so much.
He used to say he was coming to pick me up and never turn up and would go missing for years and I would never hear from him! When I was in school he used to ring me up and tell me he was going to committ suicide by hanging himself he is very good at making out what he is doing my fault. He would tell me all the time that I was a crap daughter when he was drunk. I feel so guilty for him being the way he is. He has no family other than me and my sister, he was adopted when he was younger.
HE told me that my godfather committed suicide but he didn't. He would send me letters and bithday cards making me feel guilty because I never send him any. He used to turn up to my mums house drunk and come upstairs to my room and sit on my bed and wake me up and talk crap to me when I had school the next day.
Why is it that I can't tell him how I really feel? How much his hurt me? I have had years of councilling due to him but it effects my life, relationship with men and my job.
Last time I saw him was 3 years ago and he got drunk and told me to off in front of a restaurant. He can't admit his in the wrong yet I feel sorry for him, imy mum hates me seeing him or even talking to him. He used to emotionally blackmail me into seeing him.
He has just text me telling me he is ill and has a year to live I don't know what to do. He is a compulsive liar and I don't know if to believe him, but I don't want to not see him and feel guilty knowing he has no-one. What to I do?
He is very good at what he goes making me feel so bad, I put up with it for most of my life and don't know anything different. I used to me stuck in the middle of arguments with my parents and get physically pulled with my mum on one arm and my dad on the other. I am starting to have coucnilling again as I can't handle it anymore.
Please help me ease my mind