I am so depressed. I had left my last post with you all. I hurt the one I love. He will not see me. I want to tell him I am so sorry to his face. We have been like best friends for over 1 year. We talked about everything in our life. I could call him with my troubles.. and now I don't have him. I am so hurt. I wake up at 2 and can't go back to sleep for hours.. in the last 4 nights.. I have gotten out in my car and drove to were he lives. I can't keep doing this. I think about doing things to myself.. I don't want to hurt myself. But I am so afraid if I don't get some help or for him to talk to me and just let me say to his face I am so sorry. Why do I feel this way? I hurt so bad.. I am a 45 year old woman. With a life a head of me. My kids are all gone and I am so alone now. I love him so much it hurts my heart. Can someone help me please.. :(

Purly simple... do what you just said... say your sorry to his face!! Go to his house, knock, and apologize before he can say anything. If you have to put your foot in the door and say "I just wanted to say I'm sorry..." If he doesn't say anything back then walk away... you got to let him take it from there.