I am wondering if there is any kind of psychological illness associated with the following symptoms-

-constantly exhausted
-major headaches almost daily
-high heart rate
-terrible short-term memory
-inability to focus
-feeling passionless; nothing excites me- used to have lots of interests- now they all seem stupid and pointless
-constantly feel inadequate
-small tasks seem overwhelming (however, I can still do them- just very reluctantly and procrastinate for a while before hand)
-worried constantly about finances; feel the need to re-work weekly/monthly budget at least once daily
-no interest whatsoever in social activities
-no friends, and no interest in making friends- spending time with current 'friends' (who are more aquaintances than friends) seems like a chore that I avoid at all costs
-resent work, when I used to enjoy it
-easily irritated
-feel very positive on occasion, but it quickly subsides
-never able to find a balance in emotions- either extremely positive and optimistic or extremely depressed and hopeless
-feel like everything is out of control all the time
-feel like I'm being crushed by pressure- hopeless, no escape
-intense fear of confrontation- arguments cause my entire body to tense up- unable to think clearly or at all- mind goes completely blank, even in situations where it's not an screaming and yelling ARGUMENT but just an intense discussion/argument- I try frantically to think of a response, to understand what the other person said, to figure out what I think or feel and say it... and I feel frantic because I just cannot process anything- it's like there's either NOTHING going on in my head or just way too much to understand (can't really tell which it is)
-not angered easily, but feel the need to physically express my anger when it arises- feel pent up, need to punch/hit something (NEVER a person- either a wall or myself)
-cry easily
-inability to clearly express myself verbally

Idk if any of this means anything at all... but I'm hopeful that someone who knows about these things would be able to hit the nail on the head by reading through that-

I don't know if it's just stress from current circumstances, or something else underlying that which makes dealing with my current circumstances more difficult- or if maybe my current circumstances are causing me to develop some sort of psychological illness or distress-

Someone please help- I feel like I'm running on empty and dragging myself through every day- I need advice on what my problem could be-

Sounds like bipolar disorder to me. Have you seen a doctor or psychiatrist?

How long has this been going on? Weeks, months or years?

You could have serious depression bi polar or it could be chronic fatigue syndrome or fibromyalgia
Chronic Fatigue Syndrome (http://www.emedicinehealth.com/chronic_fatigue_syndrome/article_em.htm)

Fibromyalgia symptoms treatment Fibromyalgia FMS treatment (http://www.fibromyalgia-symptoms.org/)

It could be about 10 different things in all honesty, let's take it one step at a time.

I need to know how long this has been going.

True, it could be many different things.

ososad

You certainly do not have the

inability to clearly express yourself verbally. To me, you have done that extremely well.

I think you might be suffering from depression. In the UK, up to 40% of the poplutation have suffered from this at some time in their lives. You are not unusual.

I have no idea what you have done to try to help yourself, but seeing a Doctor must be the first step. You must look after yourself, but also realise there are people who care,. more than you probably think.

Please try to seek professional assistance. Thinking of you. BW.

Well, some things for years... let me try to break it down a little more...

The last time I felt really 'okay' was... about 3 1/2-4 yrs ago. Things fluctuate from time to time, but... maybe this will help.

For the past 5+ yrs:

-inability to clearly express myself verbally
-intense fear of confrontation- arguments cause my entire body to tense up- unable to think clearly or at all- mind goes completely blank, even in situations where it's not an screaming and yelling ARGUMENT but just an intense discussion/argument- I try frantically to think of a response, to understand what the other person said, to figure out what I think or feel and say it... and I feel frantic because I just cannot process anything- it's like there's either NOTHING going on in my head or just way too much to understand (can't really tell which it is)
-never able to find a balance in emotions- either extremely positive and optimistic or extremely depressed and hopeless
-high heart rate


For the past 3+ yrs:

All of the above, plus:
-constantly feel inadequate
-feel very positive on occasion, but it quickly subsides
-not angered easily, but feel the need to physically express my anger when it arises- feel pent up, need to punch/hit something (NEVER a person- either a wall or myself)
-cry easily

Past 1+ yrs:

All of the above, plus:
-worried constantly about finances; feel the need to re-work weekly/monthly budget at least once daily
-terrible short-term memory
-inability to focus
-feeling passionless; nothing excites me- used to have lots of interests- now they all seem stupid and pointless
-feel like everything is out of control all the time
-feel like I'm being crushed by pressure- hopeless, no escape

Past six months:
-no interest whatsoever in social activities
-no friends, and no interest in making friends- spending time with current 'friends' (who are more aquaintances than friends) seems like a chore that I avoid at all costs)
-resent work, when I used to enjoy it
-easily irritated
-constantly exhausted
-major headaches almost daily
-small tasks seem overwhelming (however, I can still do them- just very reluctantly and procrastinate for a while before hand)

Hope that helps.

Thanks!

Thanks
also, just to clarify- I can express myself fairly well in writing
but I can NEVER speak things I feel or think clearly whatsoever
conversation is hopeless
which is why I feel seeing someone for help might not really do much for me
because I'd have to TALK to them
=/

Thank you for giving me the time line. I asked because some of this can be attributed to certain medical conditions. As far as depression goes it has to be over a certain amount of time to determine which form of depression it is.

It does indeed sound to me like Bipolar Disorder, but not rapid cycling Bipolar.

This does need to be treated medicinally. Please make an appointment with your doctor to go over a depression screening then he/she will give you a referral to the particular specialist necessary to treat your disorder.