I realize that I can't seem to control my jealously and when I get jealous I gain so much anger and I catch weird mood swings I feel depressed and very emotional I get jealous for anything.. with my boyfriend I get mad most of the time when he's out with his friends or if he doesn't call me or takes a long time to reply. I'm always having negative thoughts in my head. I don't know why I feel so emotional at times I cry because I hold so much anger but I just can't explain why... so my question is what's going on with me ? I'm confused because I hate feeling this way

I think you are going through all of this pain because you are holding your anger inside. That is not good. It's only going to build up and you may take it out on the wrong person. As for your jealousy you should talk to your parnter and tell how you feel. That way he knows and could maybe aviod it.(not by never speaking to his friends again or what ever the situation may be)

I think it is because you held in so much anger it building up and your getting even more angry. You should talk to someone or take your anger out on material objects. Not by breaking things or ramming your fist through a brick wall. But by yelling at a tree. Get it all of your chest when no one is looking. Lol. Seriously though, you should let that anger go.

There are many ways...
You could talk to a friend and after that do something you enjoy.
Take a nap or a breath.
Don't have time? Make time! You may need it more than you think you do.
Have no one to talk to? I'm free.