bummed
Oct 31, 2007, 10:44 AM
Okay so my guy friend and I met in college last year. We clicked right from the start(as friends) and had a class together for about a month. After that class we graduated and he moved to los angeles. For a year until I moved to Los angeles, we talked on the phone all the time and just made each other laugh... obviously with the state difference(I was still in GA), we still lived our lives but kept in touch.
One year later(about 3 months ago), I move to los angeles for work. As soon as I got here, we started hanging out all the time and talking on the phone everyday. It seemed obvious he was into me and he would make comments about me being his girlfriend. He was really sweet.
So about 3 weeks ago, we spent the entire weekend together. He spent the night that Saturday, but all we did was cuddle, and it was so great. The next day we were together all day and that night we were cuddling and he kissed me. We ended up making out for like 3 hours. However it was getting late and I asked him to leave. He did. Then, he didn't call me for a like a week(even though I called him once). So, I asked him was he upset that I made him leave and he said he was fine. But since then, we rarely talk on the phone and I've only seen him in group settings. When we do talk on the phone, it's always about everything and anything except that.
So enter the drama that has now consumed me.. lol. So, I got tired of us never talking about it or how we feel. He was avoiding being alone with me, even when I would ask him to do something. So I decided to tell him how I felt. I wrote him a long email, thinking this would be the only way to talk about this. I told him I liked him and asked if he didn't feel the same way then why did he kiss me in the first place? That was 2 nights ago, and I now(through a friend) know that he read it, but that he also forwarded it to his sister(who is also a friend of mine). So I guess my question is, while I sit here waiting for him to do something or call me, is A) Am I completely lame? I mean this is something we should talk about right? B) How do I get over my embarrassment. All of my friends out here, I know through him... so it will be akward for me to hang out with them. I mean as embarrassed as I feel, I am still glad that I did it, but was that so incredibly naïve of me to think that he was into me? I mean making out with someone implies you like them in some capacity right?
Anyone still reading this diatribe? Lol!
One year later(about 3 months ago), I move to los angeles for work. As soon as I got here, we started hanging out all the time and talking on the phone everyday. It seemed obvious he was into me and he would make comments about me being his girlfriend. He was really sweet.
So about 3 weeks ago, we spent the entire weekend together. He spent the night that Saturday, but all we did was cuddle, and it was so great. The next day we were together all day and that night we were cuddling and he kissed me. We ended up making out for like 3 hours. However it was getting late and I asked him to leave. He did. Then, he didn't call me for a like a week(even though I called him once). So, I asked him was he upset that I made him leave and he said he was fine. But since then, we rarely talk on the phone and I've only seen him in group settings. When we do talk on the phone, it's always about everything and anything except that.
So enter the drama that has now consumed me.. lol. So, I got tired of us never talking about it or how we feel. He was avoiding being alone with me, even when I would ask him to do something. So I decided to tell him how I felt. I wrote him a long email, thinking this would be the only way to talk about this. I told him I liked him and asked if he didn't feel the same way then why did he kiss me in the first place? That was 2 nights ago, and I now(through a friend) know that he read it, but that he also forwarded it to his sister(who is also a friend of mine). So I guess my question is, while I sit here waiting for him to do something or call me, is A) Am I completely lame? I mean this is something we should talk about right? B) How do I get over my embarrassment. All of my friends out here, I know through him... so it will be akward for me to hang out with them. I mean as embarrassed as I feel, I am still glad that I did it, but was that so incredibly naïve of me to think that he was into me? I mean making out with someone implies you like them in some capacity right?
Anyone still reading this diatribe? Lol!