I've been going out with this guy for 3 years now... he was my first in everything.. when in my teens wasn't really interested in boys just studying away. But during the relationship I have done alott of stopid things now! I've texted other guys because I liked the attention which cause him to break up with me, it hurt bad and I would bug him nuff, and he got back to me... I feel as though our relationship is so stained but we love each which is holding everything, we argue constantly and we've even hads physically fights.. dont worry ladies I'm hitting him and he restraining me! He says I lost everything of how he sees me and stuff because of all the past and I do want to try but I dunna how to because he's got diff mentality.. and everyday it something new with me or him... n now I'm feeling another guy what heel is wrong with me... im a one woman... which caused me to see the other guy too I want my first love... but I'm diggin the other kind of... ino don't pick the one you like for the one you love because he we live you for the one he loves but help! I'm so confused nowadays and so down...

I doubt this relationship will last much longer as unhealthy as it is, and your actions will certainly lead you to many more unhealthy relationships, until you can handle your temper and other emotions much better. Its not a relationship you need, but help in identifing and dealing with your personal issues. Get some one you trust to help you or a counselor who can give you some directions as to how to go about this. I wish you luck, whatever you choose.