Orangestrange
Aug 26, 2007, 07:20 AM
Hi,
Let me tell what happened in my life in last five years.
My Nature(Will help you in juddging my character)
I am very soft, got matured two years back mentally, childish, bit sensitive.
My Life
During my college days, I had crush on a guy. I felt like getting married to him when I was in my last year. He used to stare at me which made me think that he is also interested. We have never sopken to each other. Our college got over. I got his phone number through one of his friend. I proposed him over phone. He didn't accept. But still I was mad of him. At this point of time I really don't know what is sex. Then later I came to know and I really felt bad that I propsed a guy. I was asking him to accept, but he didn't accept and one of his friend came between us. Even after knowing that I love his friend he was forcing
Me to love him. And then I was fed up with his torture and decided to stop everything. It ended up. Now me and the guy whom I had crush during my college days are good friends, he respects me. Initially I struggeled a lot to forgot him. But a guy (my co worker) came to my life which made me to forgot the first guy.
Me and co worker were in the project and he is kind of guy who is very shy to girls. He doesn't talk much to girls. I used to talk to him, he also slowly talking to me. We were going in the same bus. When we started talking we started going together. Not daily but at times. Its not that we plan, it happens. We used to play, he used to tease me and we were having fun days. I used to pinch him and he also plays with me. I was slowly falling for him. When we are alone he used to talk to me nicely, but when we are in group of people he will behave as though he and me are not close. If anybody offers him anything he will talk but if I does he won't. He never sits next to me when we are in friends circle. If I call him for a coffee or break he will one of his friend and come. When we get into the bus he sometimes don't sit next to me. One day he insulted me in front of my friend, I cried a lot and he knows about the same and he didn't even ask me why I cried. Then he went to diff place and I felt bad that he is leaving me and going. I cried. During those last days he was very kind and soft to me. He sat next to me even in the group of people, he should special attention to me and I felt that he has some soft corner for me but he tried to hide it from me. He could not, he was staring at me and I was able to make from his face that he is also feeling the same like me. He went. I used to chat with him almost daily, my friends used to tease me with him. I had fallen for him by that time. Even he is busy, he used to chat with me. One day I was asking him whether he satrted learining cooking.He asked me why he should learn. I told othrwise he will be kicked by his wife. He asked me whether I am planning to do the same. I lost myself to him. We started going in the bus together. We used to play, fight, laugh... then I satrted calling him over phone, we sopke. He also will call if I ask him to call. I got a chance of going to his place. I was very happy. I asked him to come and received me in the railway station and arrange a cab to go to my place. He told he will try. Then I reached the place and called him, he told he will try to come. Finally he came (his friends told that he was playing with me telling that he will try) I thought he will arrange a cab and ask me to go. But surprisingly he had taken a rental car and came woth me to my place and dropped me safely and then went back to his place in that late night. My respect for him increased me by several times. I helped me a lot, howevr he is busy he used to pay attention and answer my questions. I thought of gifting him and I gifted also. He didn't talk to me properly, whenever I got a chance to meet him, he was just staring and looked nervous. His friends were also teasing him with me. I thought bcoz of that. I had called him many times to come out with me. He didn't. He was about to leave that place in a month. I asked him not to go, he told if he could answer yes so
That I will be happy he can tell the same. He at least tried to answer which will make me happy. When the day came for me to gift him, I was very happy. But I don't what he expected. He looked tensed and nervous, and was not normal. After I gifted him, he saw the gift and asked him whether I am crazy to spend somuch I told I don't mind. He left. I insisted him not to go. A day before that only I had told him that he is bad that he doest pay attention to his friend. I was just kidding bcoz he didn't pick my call when I called him. He was pointing out this incident and told why I want him to stay here if he doest pick my call, doesn't pay attention to me. I felt bad and told I was just kidding. We departed. The next day I proposed(I know it is not possible for me to get married to him, bcoz he is bramin,kannadian and I am not bramin and I am tamilian, if he has a girl friend its not fair for me to even thinking of marrying him) and told that I want to live witth him. He told no and when I asked for the reason he told there is no reason. He had told me that he has a girl firend. But I hought he was joking bcoz I am sure he don't have. If he has I really don't know why he told he has no reason for not accepting me. I asked him then why he was
Close to me he told whatevr he did was as a friend. I got angry on him I felt I am fooled and cried. He told he can be a friend and not anuthiny else. I asked whether he will be a friend. When I proposed him I told him I can't imagine another girl with him, so better we stop contact if he doesn't accept. But I thougth I can be friendly to him. He also told OK, but he started avoiding me. Thoguh I told I want his friendship, I really cant. He need him only as a life partner I felt I can't be his friend and I stopped contacting him.
Can anyone tell what is happening between me and him.
I will be very happy if he gets married to his girl friend if he really has one. But my question is if he has gil friend then why did he behaved with me or moved with me very closely. I can make out lot of difference between my relationship with him and with other friends. There are lot of difference which made me think he is in love with me.
Please post your opininons.
Let me tell what happened in my life in last five years.
My Nature(Will help you in juddging my character)
I am very soft, got matured two years back mentally, childish, bit sensitive.
My Life
During my college days, I had crush on a guy. I felt like getting married to him when I was in my last year. He used to stare at me which made me think that he is also interested. We have never sopken to each other. Our college got over. I got his phone number through one of his friend. I proposed him over phone. He didn't accept. But still I was mad of him. At this point of time I really don't know what is sex. Then later I came to know and I really felt bad that I propsed a guy. I was asking him to accept, but he didn't accept and one of his friend came between us. Even after knowing that I love his friend he was forcing
Me to love him. And then I was fed up with his torture and decided to stop everything. It ended up. Now me and the guy whom I had crush during my college days are good friends, he respects me. Initially I struggeled a lot to forgot him. But a guy (my co worker) came to my life which made me to forgot the first guy.
Me and co worker were in the project and he is kind of guy who is very shy to girls. He doesn't talk much to girls. I used to talk to him, he also slowly talking to me. We were going in the same bus. When we started talking we started going together. Not daily but at times. Its not that we plan, it happens. We used to play, he used to tease me and we were having fun days. I used to pinch him and he also plays with me. I was slowly falling for him. When we are alone he used to talk to me nicely, but when we are in group of people he will behave as though he and me are not close. If anybody offers him anything he will talk but if I does he won't. He never sits next to me when we are in friends circle. If I call him for a coffee or break he will one of his friend and come. When we get into the bus he sometimes don't sit next to me. One day he insulted me in front of my friend, I cried a lot and he knows about the same and he didn't even ask me why I cried. Then he went to diff place and I felt bad that he is leaving me and going. I cried. During those last days he was very kind and soft to me. He sat next to me even in the group of people, he should special attention to me and I felt that he has some soft corner for me but he tried to hide it from me. He could not, he was staring at me and I was able to make from his face that he is also feeling the same like me. He went. I used to chat with him almost daily, my friends used to tease me with him. I had fallen for him by that time. Even he is busy, he used to chat with me. One day I was asking him whether he satrted learining cooking.He asked me why he should learn. I told othrwise he will be kicked by his wife. He asked me whether I am planning to do the same. I lost myself to him. We started going in the bus together. We used to play, fight, laugh... then I satrted calling him over phone, we sopke. He also will call if I ask him to call. I got a chance of going to his place. I was very happy. I asked him to come and received me in the railway station and arrange a cab to go to my place. He told he will try. Then I reached the place and called him, he told he will try to come. Finally he came (his friends told that he was playing with me telling that he will try) I thought he will arrange a cab and ask me to go. But surprisingly he had taken a rental car and came woth me to my place and dropped me safely and then went back to his place in that late night. My respect for him increased me by several times. I helped me a lot, howevr he is busy he used to pay attention and answer my questions. I thought of gifting him and I gifted also. He didn't talk to me properly, whenever I got a chance to meet him, he was just staring and looked nervous. His friends were also teasing him with me. I thought bcoz of that. I had called him many times to come out with me. He didn't. He was about to leave that place in a month. I asked him not to go, he told if he could answer yes so
That I will be happy he can tell the same. He at least tried to answer which will make me happy. When the day came for me to gift him, I was very happy. But I don't what he expected. He looked tensed and nervous, and was not normal. After I gifted him, he saw the gift and asked him whether I am crazy to spend somuch I told I don't mind. He left. I insisted him not to go. A day before that only I had told him that he is bad that he doest pay attention to his friend. I was just kidding bcoz he didn't pick my call when I called him. He was pointing out this incident and told why I want him to stay here if he doest pick my call, doesn't pay attention to me. I felt bad and told I was just kidding. We departed. The next day I proposed(I know it is not possible for me to get married to him, bcoz he is bramin,kannadian and I am not bramin and I am tamilian, if he has a girl friend its not fair for me to even thinking of marrying him) and told that I want to live witth him. He told no and when I asked for the reason he told there is no reason. He had told me that he has a girl firend. But I hought he was joking bcoz I am sure he don't have. If he has I really don't know why he told he has no reason for not accepting me. I asked him then why he was
Close to me he told whatevr he did was as a friend. I got angry on him I felt I am fooled and cried. He told he can be a friend and not anuthiny else. I asked whether he will be a friend. When I proposed him I told him I can't imagine another girl with him, so better we stop contact if he doesn't accept. But I thougth I can be friendly to him. He also told OK, but he started avoiding me. Thoguh I told I want his friendship, I really cant. He need him only as a life partner I felt I can't be his friend and I stopped contacting him.
Can anyone tell what is happening between me and him.
I will be very happy if he gets married to his girl friend if he really has one. But my question is if he has gil friend then why did he behaved with me or moved with me very closely. I can make out lot of difference between my relationship with him and with other friends. There are lot of difference which made me think he is in love with me.
Please post your opininons.