Hey all.. I got a problem. I am in love with this guy for almost 2 years now. We love each other. There has been many ups and downs, break ups and patch ups like any other realtion. I am 19 and he is 20 just to let you know. I have been very harsh on him before for giving him no care and ignoring him but now I have realized I can't live without him. I told this to him and I asked sorry thousand times. He understands me. But I feel like he is ignoring me these days like I did to him in the past. Sometimes I feel like he needs some space and I am happy to give that to him but this has been comtinuing for a long time. Its also not that he totally ignores me. When we are alone at his place he cares about me but when people are around he just gives a damn about me, which hurts. My problem is I just can't get him out of my mind for even a single second. He is right there all the time. Can't 'think about anything else. Well I know, my frens have been telling me to do something creative, go shopping, cook which is my hobby. But I don't feel like doing anything. I just don't have any energy. I don't get excited about my life which I should @ this time of age. All I do, think, feel is my BOYFRIEND. I need to get out of this and be happy. My school starts soon and if this continues I will definitely have to suffer in the end. Seems like he is having lods of fun with his friends. Please help! Frustated.

No need to post twice hun... someone will help you out with your question when they can. I'll take a shot at it in a bit when I get a good chance.

It always seems like the ex is having fun and could not care about the other person, that's just b/s. I will agree that it seems that way because the other person usually goes out of the way to "appear" they are carefree and all that, but they care, trust they do.

Actually I never really gave you any insight on that last one, sorry, here goes:

It's normal to go through these things, look at ALL the relationship questions in the forums, its people just like you. HOWEVER, when we are lonely, sad, depressed this andthat we tend to make decisions based on eliminating the feelings for immediate return rather than what's in our best intrests. So thinking about him is normal, but acting on that feeling may hurt you more than help. I think by speaking to him or trying to get his attention will hurt you, I think not talking to him will hurt you, but ultimately not talking to him will not prolong the break-up, so that's my take. Time is the key.

Yes I confess that I was the one who treat him bad when he loved me a lot. He was really nice to me while I was harsh on him. But now I have realized that I love him a lot and can't imagine a life without him. I even told this to him. I have learned my lesson. I feel like he is my true love and how can I let my true love go? I will surely end my life if he is gone. I know he love me but he doesn't show it to me. Its been a long time he started ignoring me. Will this ever stop? I want to make things nice a balance between us. Please suggest something. I am really low..