Okay this might sound creepy to everyone but.. I for some reason love the look of blood?. Like Every time I see it I think it looks pretty.. I'm wondering is anyone else like this? Is it called something specific? I feel really creepy.. But I just do ;_;

"Love" is a big word.... for a subject like blood, I would be more inclined to say "like," and then clarify in detail.
The key with a 'fascination' is how far it goes into 'obsession.' If you stay fascinated without seeking out blood, then you are within the range of OK for now. If you start cutting yourself just to see blood, then you need a therapist. If you are cutting at all, you need one.

You don't need a word for it - just call it fascination. Don't turn into a psych manual. It's a way to trap yourself into pigeonholes.

If you start cutting yourself just to see blood, then you need a therapist. If you are cutting at all, you need one.

https://www.askmehelpdesk.com/addictions/self-harm-itchy-cut-822688.html

I think you could stand some in person help. The sooner the better for your ISSUES.