Hyouka
Mar 9, 2015, 07:42 PM
I know that people throw OCD term around lightly lately. And I've heard of OCPD, which is just a tendency to keep doing something in a particular way, it doesn't give anxiety. I do not experience anxiety when things aren't organized in a particular way, I don't wash my hands unnecessarily many times, I do not check if doors are locked all the time. I don't have most common symptoms. Though If I scratch one side, I must scratch the other, chew with both sides of the mouth, all of them body/touch/pain related. All of these "rituals" and many more cause anxiety, and following an order relieves it. What actually made me write this was something else.
It's like twitching . If I raise my right shoulder a little, I must raise my left shoulder a little, now I must extend both of them sideways, invert inside and push downwards to complete a full circle. Sounds like "normal" OCD, but nothing else causes me anxiety like this one, it makes me feel restless, hurts my concentration.
After I do one circle, I need to do another one and another one, sometimes I do this hundreds of time everyday. Once a person sitting in a classroom behind me asked if something was wrong because I was twitching. And I didn't even know what he was talking about at first, because I don't even notice when I'm doing it. It became as natural as breathing. I should mention, stretching a lot and working out helps, the feeling of restlessness goes away and I forget about this twitching for a pretty long period.
I've heard that some muscle twitching might be caused by some kind of muscle/nerve disorder, so I wanted to ask, If anyone knows anything about it.
P.S. I haven't been diagnosed with OCD and was not tested for anything else , and most likely will never be, because these things cost a fortune. It doesn't get in the way of my life. Sometimes the twitching may make me look weird but I can live with that.
It's like twitching . If I raise my right shoulder a little, I must raise my left shoulder a little, now I must extend both of them sideways, invert inside and push downwards to complete a full circle. Sounds like "normal" OCD, but nothing else causes me anxiety like this one, it makes me feel restless, hurts my concentration.
After I do one circle, I need to do another one and another one, sometimes I do this hundreds of time everyday. Once a person sitting in a classroom behind me asked if something was wrong because I was twitching. And I didn't even know what he was talking about at first, because I don't even notice when I'm doing it. It became as natural as breathing. I should mention, stretching a lot and working out helps, the feeling of restlessness goes away and I forget about this twitching for a pretty long period.
I've heard that some muscle twitching might be caused by some kind of muscle/nerve disorder, so I wanted to ask, If anyone knows anything about it.
P.S. I haven't been diagnosed with OCD and was not tested for anything else , and most likely will never be, because these things cost a fortune. It doesn't get in the way of my life. Sometimes the twitching may make me look weird but I can live with that.