Thecrusader
Jun 9, 2014, 09:17 AM
It all started a year ago... let me name her Angela for ease. We are friends from childhood but we came into contact again a year ago. She was very caring, loving, charming and active and also she tried to pull me towards her. We eventually came closer. She was all happy, she never got angry and all I wanted to do was to make her happy. She was happy. I sang songs for her on call and told her stories she loved them. Then eventually I started liking her and I told her that I had feelings for her. She replied negatively, but all her talks and signs were positive.
Then started the negative period. Her relations with some of her friends got worse, she slowly became impatient, started getting angry. Then after some time, she accepted that she loves me but its not possible because of her family. One day, she stopped talking and I didn't know the reason. She didn't pick up my call or didn't reply for 3 weeks. I felt too much pain. One day, she came back and asked to meet and we met. Things got normal again. We went out for lunches, watched movies on my laptop on the backseat of car. That was the golden time and she missed me every moment.
At that time I was the only friend of her but we were like a couple, but her fear stopped us from getting committed. One day she introduced me to her classmate. Don't know why and how, but her classmate asked her that how could she be with and like a dumb and idiot boy like me, how can she? She chatted with me only once and thought that I am dumb without meeting or talking. Then after Angela started mentioning dumb and idiot,and started getting angry with me without any valid reason. Her nature got worse. Before two months, after a movie, she pulled me towards her and kissed me and said that she loves me (I knew she did.. for past six months, but she didn't speak as she thought its impossible.. she did today), but she felt guilty and felt that she is cheating her mother if she loves me. She said she doesn't care about anyone, no one can stop her from being mine, and kept repeating "i love you". It lasted 3 days, she slept saying "I love you. I wish I could sleep in your arms".
From the next morning, she stopped talking. Cut all my calls. Stopped replying on whatsapp. For 20 days, it was hell for me. I didn't know why she was being so harsh. One day, I kept calling until she picked up. She did. But didn't talk. Then next day, she texted me and asked why I didn't let her go. She was about to forget me. And I reminded her everything. She will take revenge and said that I spoiled her life. I took her on wrong path. Made her cheat her mother. Then eventually she became normal. She said she misses me, but got uneasy when I asked to meet. About a week ago, she said she wants only me on her birthday. She wants to be with me all her life. But kept repeating that it's not possible. She called me to her home. Asked me to stay outside. Came to window and called on my phone, but cut the call in between and went inside saying bye.
I came back to home. Then she called again and asked "why did you go back to home. I hate you. 2 days ago, she went to her classmate's home for night out (who found me dumb and idiot). Again she said that all her friends find me dumb and idiot. I argued that they don't know me and have never met me. They have no right to say something like that about me. She said they are right and she is with them. When I messaged her today, she said don't you see, I am not interested in you. I really love her and I know that she also did. She didn't express as she was afraid of family and kept repeating it's impossible. It's like she has cycles of positivity and negativity. When she gets angry, she doesn't like anything. Any try of mine becomes worthless. Eventually now, she has no value for my efforts, my stories or songs I sing for her.
I want things to get normal. Her to be how she was a year ago. What should I do... if I give her time, what if she never comes back? What does she actually want? 2 days ago she said she wants me with her all her life. And today she said she is not interested in me. What do I do..? She is the only friend and love of mine. We have no mutual friends. She is talking to me right now on texts. But replies only to gm or gn. How things changes in 2 days. :(
I am afraid that our friendship will end.
Then started the negative period. Her relations with some of her friends got worse, she slowly became impatient, started getting angry. Then after some time, she accepted that she loves me but its not possible because of her family. One day, she stopped talking and I didn't know the reason. She didn't pick up my call or didn't reply for 3 weeks. I felt too much pain. One day, she came back and asked to meet and we met. Things got normal again. We went out for lunches, watched movies on my laptop on the backseat of car. That was the golden time and she missed me every moment.
At that time I was the only friend of her but we were like a couple, but her fear stopped us from getting committed. One day she introduced me to her classmate. Don't know why and how, but her classmate asked her that how could she be with and like a dumb and idiot boy like me, how can she? She chatted with me only once and thought that I am dumb without meeting or talking. Then after Angela started mentioning dumb and idiot,and started getting angry with me without any valid reason. Her nature got worse. Before two months, after a movie, she pulled me towards her and kissed me and said that she loves me (I knew she did.. for past six months, but she didn't speak as she thought its impossible.. she did today), but she felt guilty and felt that she is cheating her mother if she loves me. She said she doesn't care about anyone, no one can stop her from being mine, and kept repeating "i love you". It lasted 3 days, she slept saying "I love you. I wish I could sleep in your arms".
From the next morning, she stopped talking. Cut all my calls. Stopped replying on whatsapp. For 20 days, it was hell for me. I didn't know why she was being so harsh. One day, I kept calling until she picked up. She did. But didn't talk. Then next day, she texted me and asked why I didn't let her go. She was about to forget me. And I reminded her everything. She will take revenge and said that I spoiled her life. I took her on wrong path. Made her cheat her mother. Then eventually she became normal. She said she misses me, but got uneasy when I asked to meet. About a week ago, she said she wants only me on her birthday. She wants to be with me all her life. But kept repeating that it's not possible. She called me to her home. Asked me to stay outside. Came to window and called on my phone, but cut the call in between and went inside saying bye.
I came back to home. Then she called again and asked "why did you go back to home. I hate you. 2 days ago, she went to her classmate's home for night out (who found me dumb and idiot). Again she said that all her friends find me dumb and idiot. I argued that they don't know me and have never met me. They have no right to say something like that about me. She said they are right and she is with them. When I messaged her today, she said don't you see, I am not interested in you. I really love her and I know that she also did. She didn't express as she was afraid of family and kept repeating it's impossible. It's like she has cycles of positivity and negativity. When she gets angry, she doesn't like anything. Any try of mine becomes worthless. Eventually now, she has no value for my efforts, my stories or songs I sing for her.
I want things to get normal. Her to be how she was a year ago. What should I do... if I give her time, what if she never comes back? What does she actually want? 2 days ago she said she wants me with her all her life. And today she said she is not interested in me. What do I do..? She is the only friend and love of mine. We have no mutual friends. She is talking to me right now on texts. But replies only to gm or gn. How things changes in 2 days. :(
I am afraid that our friendship will end.