Morgan11
Jan 10, 2014, 02:04 PM
I'm 15, and I know I have a good life. I'm in sports, I have friends. I'm not bullied or anything. It's just that every little thing usually makes me mad. My sister will say something to me, and I just want to lash out. I try to keep quiet, but I can feel myself getting more and more angry, so I end up arguing. My dad has never been there, he has schizophrenia, and my mom was diagnosed with bipolar when she was 16. I don't know what I have, I know its not just the teenage years. I've have cut before, and I have thought about multiple things to harm myself. I never do them, because I don't have enough courage. I'm scared, I don't want to do them, I don't want to do anything to myself. Some days are really good. Some days are not bad, and some days are just terrible. I get to over thinking about things.My mom has told me that she would take me to therapy. But I feel like I don't need it, maybe its because I'm scared of going, I don't know what it is. And maybe there's really no answer to my solution, maybe I just needed to vent.
CravenMorhead
Jan 10, 2014, 02:21 PM
Take your mother up on her offer. A lot of mental disorders are hereditary and are passed on in one strength or another through the generations. You're already displaying some troubling symptoms that could result in difficult social interactions and proper mental maturation. Which is to say that you got stuff going on in your brain that could make life REALLY hard.
The thing with therapy is that they'll be able to help be it an opportunity to vent and rant or whether it is to help chemically control your moods. Either way it is a way for you to get help. What makes me think that you need this help? I think you need it because you think you need it. If you were okay with all that is going on right now, being your anger and cutting issues, then you would just do it. There would be no question in your mind about your behaviour. The fact that you're questioning your behaviour and whether you need help is the best sign that you need help.
Note that asking for or needing help isn't a sign of weakness it is a sign of strength that you're willing to swallow your pride long enough to admit that you don't have it all together. It is like getting a tune up for your car, or defragging your hard disk. Things just seem to run better.
Please get help.
Wondergirl
Jan 10, 2014, 03:04 PM
Craven is right. Do the counseling thing. The counselor is the perfect person to vent to and will give you ways to cope and improve your life. Just talking about stuff will make you feel better. Just do it! Yay!!