So, my grandmother passed away recently and the last time I seen her, we had a talk. She told me that this world is corrupt and beginning to become an ugly place. She started to tear up after saying (not in a mean way) how she hates to see me grow up this way. The last thing she said to me that day was "Don't spend your life in evil, go out and do something. Be a judge, not a lawyer. Be a scientist and find a cure or be a doctor and save lives."

The next day I went to visit her again (a few hours before she passed away) and I only got to see her for 5 minutes before she was rushed away in an ambulance. She asked me one last question before they left; "What can you do to the world?"

This was only a month ago, but I've been 3 years out of high school. I wish I could do something, but with the way things are for me, it's hard to do so. Any suggestions?

I think that she would not have said anything to you, that she didn't know you could do.

I admire her for encouraging you to make the world a better place, and take advantage of the gifts you have, and get out there and do something you are capable of.

There are ways and means to get an education. Begin by figuring out what you want to do, even pre-university studies, and visit colleges and universities and see what is available. Speak to the student services/registrar's office/financial advisors. With enough drive and information- nothing is impossible.

I went from welfare to two college degrees, on my own entirely. I worked part time jobs, and if I can do it, you can do it. Millions of others have too.

“To live well, to laugh often, to love much, to gain the respect of intelligent people, to win the love of little children. To fill one's niche and accomplish one's task, to leave the world better than one finds it whether by an improved flower, a perfect poem or another life ennobled. To never lack appreciation of earth's beauty or fail to express it, to always look for the best in others, to give the best one has. To make one's life an inspiration and one's memory a benediction. This is success.” ~ Bessie A. Stanley

I think her point was to go for it in life. Think of what you wish to do, then be the best at it you can be. Don't let small obstacles get in your way.

Do for example, if you want to be a doctor or lawyer or scientist or whatever, go to college. If money is an issue or other things, overcome those obstacles. Do what you can now andctgecterm eill follow little by little.

What do you see yourself being and doing?

@dontknownuthin Im wanting to be a member of Para Rescue in the military. Unfortunately I'm not able to with my leg still broken. My paper work and conditioning was set and ready before the broken leg, so it stopped me there. I still would really like to be a member of Para Rescue, but at the moment I been doing various computer graphic and game design classes online. Changing the world from a computer desk is a bit of hard work, I feel as if sometimes doing computer graphics and game design is meant for me. I know I need to get my mind set in stone, I just wish I could be doing what I want to be doing instead of sitting at a computer all day.

I think your grandmother had high hopes for you and was telling you never give up trying to follow your dreams. A broken leg is but a temporary obstacle, but graphic design is also a good plan.

So, you have a setback with your para-rescue training. I think your Grandmother would probably remind you not to let this setback be a permanent barrier. Get signed up for the next start date when your leg will be healed, and talk to the recruiter or whomever is your contact about what you might be able to do while you recover to prepare for the program. Also make sure you are doing everything you can to recover fully - if they've put you in physical therapy, for example, or said to stay off the leg or whatever advise you are getting, do exactly what is advised to help the healing process.

And don't let one piece of advice run your entire life. People put a lot of importance behind dying words or last words from loved ones, but they are not necessarily divinely inspired or anything - they are just trying to get the advice in while they still can. I think the gist of this advice is good, but I do not think the world is inherently evil either. Consider that there is a more positive way to look at the world that is not slanted by your grandmother's apparently difficult life experiences. A broken leg is a temporary setback - carry on.