LostSapphire
Oct 30, 2013, 05:44 PM
Last year I was in a sort of relationship with a guy who lived a long 2 hours drive my home; we met over the internet. I had split with my on/off ex of 5 years with whom I have a son. Me and the internet guy were speaking daily and met up twice. I stayed at his home for 2 weekends whilst my son stayed with his grandparents. I met his family and we became very close over a 3 month period. He wanted to move in with me and was happy to be step father. However, when I returned home my ex showed up and claimed he was homeless. I let him move in and he saw messages on my phone between the internet guy and me. Without my consent or knowledge my ex texted the guy pretending to be me. After multiple texts the guy eventually called me a 'slag' and he blocked all contact with me. I was too ashamed to even try and explain myself to him and so we have had no contact since. My ex and I gradually became an item again as he was living with me and would not leave. I am completely unhappy and see no way out of this situation. I feel guilty that if I physically have him removed he will be homeless and he is a great dad. Not a day goes by that I don't think about the other guy but I'd be far too ashamed to attempt contact with him and I know he doesn't give ex's 2nd chances. In addition to this, it has been nearly 2 years. I feel so depressed and lost. Every day I hope he has messaged me but he never has. I am heart broken. I am resentful of my son's father/current boyfriend as I believe he destroyed my potential happiness. I often feel like giving up, I feel as though I am grieving for something I cannot possibly ever get back. Please help.