Charlie_hep901
Oct 19, 2013, 12:03 PM
I am a 24 year old female. Had a couple of previous sexual relationships. Both of who have cheated on me and either put me down or never given me compliments.
I am low on self-esteem and confidence because of this but always have been. I'm not over weight but I'm conscious I am not particularly toned. I have a little cellulite around my thighs and bum and I also have quite a few stretch marks on my thighs, hips and boobs as these are quite big. I am a uk 12 and weigh about 10 stone 10 and 5ft 7. However because of these imperfections I am very self conscious that thy may repulse men!
I've discovered a guy in work likes me, he's a big flirt but I do like him. Everyone think he seems smitten on me but because of the way I am I just don't see it. He is my perfect type and I just think wow why is he interested in me? His own staff are stunning one in particular looks like Nicole swerchzinger. So I'm like surely he's way out my league?
Anyway we have a staff night out next week and I know the opportunity will be there for me to go back to his hotel room. I am desperate to do this. I am so turned on every time he walks in my office I get goosebumps and tingles and he always comes over and pulls my hair and pretends to have little play fights and things. I daydream allday about ripping his clothes off...
HOWEVER... I am just scared! I want to be able to go have some fun but I'm too self conscious and as much as I want to be a kinky minx I just don't have it in me! I feel awkward when it comes to talking dirty as I have no experience and I'm just not really sure how things happen on a one stand when you have fun! As in how they all lead into each other! Basically he has his opinion of me saying like I am fit and he wants to rip my clothes off and have dirty sex (it's such a major turn on but I just don't know how to). I feel I have made myself out to be something I have no experience in and as much as I want something to happen I feel nervous as I want it to go somewhere and right now I think ill just come across as a disappointment and inexperienced!
Please help me!
I am low on self-esteem and confidence because of this but always have been. I'm not over weight but I'm conscious I am not particularly toned. I have a little cellulite around my thighs and bum and I also have quite a few stretch marks on my thighs, hips and boobs as these are quite big. I am a uk 12 and weigh about 10 stone 10 and 5ft 7. However because of these imperfections I am very self conscious that thy may repulse men!
I've discovered a guy in work likes me, he's a big flirt but I do like him. Everyone think he seems smitten on me but because of the way I am I just don't see it. He is my perfect type and I just think wow why is he interested in me? His own staff are stunning one in particular looks like Nicole swerchzinger. So I'm like surely he's way out my league?
Anyway we have a staff night out next week and I know the opportunity will be there for me to go back to his hotel room. I am desperate to do this. I am so turned on every time he walks in my office I get goosebumps and tingles and he always comes over and pulls my hair and pretends to have little play fights and things. I daydream allday about ripping his clothes off...
HOWEVER... I am just scared! I want to be able to go have some fun but I'm too self conscious and as much as I want to be a kinky minx I just don't have it in me! I feel awkward when it comes to talking dirty as I have no experience and I'm just not really sure how things happen on a one stand when you have fun! As in how they all lead into each other! Basically he has his opinion of me saying like I am fit and he wants to rip my clothes off and have dirty sex (it's such a major turn on but I just don't know how to). I feel I have made myself out to be something I have no experience in and as much as I want something to happen I feel nervous as I want it to go somewhere and right now I think ill just come across as a disappointment and inexperienced!
Please help me!