I'm 18, and when I was 14 my nana died this made me feel so low inside, shortly after that I was put into care,then I met this boy who made me feel alive again he made me so happy I fell so deep in love, I got pregnant and I was so stressed I lost our beautiful baby and that killed me. Now I've lost him. After that I feel so lost I feel like I have no emotion I feel like I'm just existing I'm not living I don't want to feel like this I feel emptyness I cry for no reason I get really angry I feel like I don't want to be here no more is there any help I can get? Everyone tells me it will get better its been 6months and I'm no better I feel worse I don't know what to do

It will get better. It is going to take a while and you're really going to need to find someone to talk to about all this. It is a heavy burden to bear and there's no reason you should do it alone. I would talk a counsellor, or even the kids help line or a adult version of that. Talk to someone, it helps to externalize what you've kept up in side. You're taking the chaos and the hurt and giving it form, and by giving it form you can deal with it.

The main problem with how you are and how you're feeling is that it is all nebulous and strange. No rhyme or reason. Sort that out and that's the first step on the long journey home.