All right so I have PTSD bipolar and split personality disorder. Im the only one with these type disorders among my brothers and sisters. I have problems keeping friends. I always can get new ones but I always lose them because they think I'm weird or crazy. Its hard to live with and I'm just confused on why I do those things and why can't I be normal? I use to take meds but stopped for a personal reason. My grandma has schizophrenia but she died... or killes herself because "god told her to". Im a normal person some times I think? Which person is the real me? Its confusing. Im 15... and a female I think? I don't know! But... I'm just wondering can my disorders just be misdiagnosed and just be forming into schizophrenia?

There is no such thing as "split personality disorder." And PTSD would come from a horrible traumatic event in your life. What happened to cause that?

And these were all diagnoses by the same psychiatrist?

There is no such thing as "split personality disorder." And PTSD would come from a horrible traumatic event in your life. What happened to cause that?

And these were all diagnoses by the same psychiatrist?

Yeah. And I have PTSD from something I rather not talk about.

Yeah. And I have PTSD from something i rather not talk about.
Well, that won't get us anywhere.

The psychiatrist knows what had happened?

Yeah. And I have PTSD from something i rather not talk about.

And its really called dissociative identify? Or identity dissorder which even but they call it split personality because I've only shown two of me.

And its really called dissociative identify? Or identity dissorder which even but they call it split personality because ive only shown two of me.
What have you been reading?

Well, that won't get us anywhere.

The psychiatrist knows what had happened?
You really need to know? All right. When I was younger I was molested by my real father. I was kidnapped. I was rapped I saw my sister get murdered just to torture me. So you think that helps now that you know?

You really need to know? Alright. When i was younger i was molested by my real father. I was kidnapped. I was rapped i saw my sister get murdered just to torture me. So you think that helps now that you know?!
Does the psychiatrist know this?

What have you been reading?

Your replies? You certainly are a conselor aren't you? Hah, exact reason I've hated them all.

Does the psychiatrist know this?
Of course he knows! I don't think id be going to a ing conselor just to tell him how my damn day went!

Your replies? You certainly are a conselor arent you? Hah, exact reason ive hated them all.
No one calls it split personality -- two of you or not. It sounds like a novel you've been reading or some ancient books in the psychology section at the library. Kidnapped by whom? Raped by someone else? Your sister murdered? By whom?

Of course he knows! I dont think id be going to a ing conselor just to tell him how my damn day went!
You told me when he asks you how you feel, you say fine.

You told me when he asks you how you feel, you say fine.

This is just a waste why am I trying to tell you want my problem is if your just going to try and turn it a different way. Its just making me mad

This is just a waste why am i trying to tell you want my problem is if your just going to try and turn it a diffrent way. Its just making me mad
Maybe it's time you got mad and started doing something about your life.

What is your other personality like?

Maybe it's time you got mad and started doing something about your life.

What is your other personality like?
My other personality? I don't even know why I'm on here?

My other personality?? I dont even know why im on here?
You said you have two personalities. It's a fair question.

You said you do weird or crazy things and have no friends. What things do you do?

You said you do weird or crazy things and have no friends. What things do you do?

Wait I'm sorry for getting mad I don't know why I said that?
I say things out of place for one. A lot of times people tell me I just stare or zone out. I was at home in my room and my mom said she came in and saw me sitting on my bed just starring at the wall she tried getting my attention and I just starred at the wall
I don't remember that I remember me being at the park with my best friend
Then this only happened twice I got out the shower and when I looked in the mirror it didn't look like me... I freak ed out. I told my doctor about it the second time and that's when he tried to admit me. But I do not ever want to go to a crazy house. And I will never ever ever go!

Back in the 1930s the woman who became my grandmother was diagnosed as schizophrenic, back when psychiatry was still in its youth. She was institutionalized many times and was medicated until she was a zombie and had many shock treatments. Later, in the 1950s, psychiatrists decided to call it manic-depressive illness (bipolar). Her younger son, my uncle, came home from being in Burma during WWII and was diagnosed as having bipolar illness. He would take his meds, feel good for so many years, and then decide he was cured -- and off to the hospital he went for six weeks or so to straighten up his meds and his life.

I lived near him (8 blocks away). He had no wife or kids, so it fell to me to be his caretaker, to visit him regularly and keep an eye on his behavior. I could write a book about that and all the hospital stays he had and how he refused to take his meds when he felt good ("I'm cured!").

So you see, I've lived through this in my own family and really want you to be your own best advocate. Go back to the psychiatrist and tell him/her that you have been throwing out your meds and why. Talk about the weight and ask for him/her to recommend a counselor you can go to once a week to keep you on the straight and narrow plus help you with weight loss (set weekly goals and help you meet them).

Your parents (or their insurance) are paying big money for this psychiatrist. You are wasting their money by telling him/her you are fine. If something isn't going right, be sure you advocate for yourself and say so. You sound like a feisty young woman and I'm sure can handle being up front and honest. All you are doing so far is being dishonest and does not help your mental health or weight problems at all.

Okay. I'm done lecturing and am going to bed. You need to get some sleep too..