Okm
May 18, 2013, 08:20 AM
(before I start I would like to say that usually I'm not homophobic but it's just weird that my friend is bi or lesbian) Two days ago we were playing a game that is called The Truth Game over text. After asking several questions I asked her if she's ever liked anyone she didn't tell me about, and she said "no." then she said "Well, yeah but you'll get mad if I tell you." My first thought was about a guy I really dislike but if she liked him she liked him that's all I thought. I answered back " I won't be mad just tell me!" Then she said "I can't it's really big!" I answered " ok,well I may get mad but I won't stay mad forever at least give me some traits?!" So she said " brown hair like mine blue glasses and the teachers name" Then I guessed our friends name and she said (sorta looked joyful how she typed it) DING DING DING! Yeah I like her! :D! Then my iPod got taken away lol. So before school I didn't understand that it would be so? So? Awkward. Luckily the person she likes wasn't in school because I would have been all off-kilter feeling. So I don't know why but I was feeling like avoiding her would make me feel better but the entire day my stomach was "flipping" and I felt dizzy. Yeah the only text I texted her was to answer what time a concert started with an I don't know. And I feel that since I pulled it out of her our friendship won't ever be the same. I know I'm being a jerk but I can't help it, after she told me I went to bed because I was tired eccept that I didn't sleep right away I was in tears thrashing around because I knew we wouldn't be normal any more. I used to think that kids don't find their sexuality to be different until high school or closer to high school. ( we are both female and 12 years old in 6 grade) I'm just having a lot of anxiety and stress thinking maybe its just a stupid girl crush that she thinks is real but isn't but I don't know anymore. Yesterday I went to the woods to clear my mind and it turns out that the woods kept me from all of the stress and anxiety. So I went deeper into the woods than I ever went before and found a peaceful meadowy place but I didn't go into it. Am I going through post traumatic stress disorder or something?