My boyfriend and I went out lastnight and had a couple drinks ( not drunk by any means just maybe 2 casual beer)
On the way home we stopped to get food and an argument started over something so insignificant I can't even remember what about.
I'm usually very quiet if we argue but I stood my ground this time and he pulled over and tried to make me get out in the middle is a random street at 2am. When I wouldn't get out he threw all the food I just bought us out the window . He's never got this bad before he then called me a bunch of names and said how he hates me and I'm a waste of space and time and I just wanted him to calm down when we got home so we could talk ( I'm a sensative person fighting isn't my thing) he just kept screaming and telling me to get out of "his bed" "his room" an then proceeded to push me into walls and the floor, when I got up I tried to calm him down and he grabbed me by the throat.so I went on the couch and cried and he came out of the room ad yelled at me for crying.

We live together , he's gone to work now. I love him very much I really do, even though I know this isn't acceptable but I'm too much a forgiving person and I feel to blame.
I have no car, live in a small area with no busses ALL my family lives Across the country and I have no where to go. I don't know what to do.

I think you should try and talk to him when he gets back from work, tell him how bad he made you feel and how hurt you are. And if that's unsuccessful then go quiet, don't speak to him, don't look at him, make him realize, the hard way, that what he did wan unacceptable, and that you are hurt by his actions.

He's getting physical with you I mean violent. That's bad. He might have some issues which he's not sharing with you. You should talk with him and made him realize how hurt you are. Also ask him why he said all those things, what he really mean. Also try to get connect with your family. They should know about it. Handle the situation with calm mind. You love him but that doesn't mean you should tolerate violence. Forgiving is fine but don't be unfair with yourself.

Being physical with you is way over the line. This type of behavior usually doesn't get better, it gets worse. Those words he chose were really mean. You need to rethink your situation and make some decisions. If it was me, I wouldn't stand for those behaviors and leave.

Agree with Oliver - his "issues" aren't going to matter very much when he hurts you.

I wouldn't care if his behavior is or isn't fueled by alcohol.

I wouldn't stay -

The guy is trash. Not only the verbal assault but then pushing you and grabbing your throat? Who in their right mind does that? You should have had him arrested.

I see you have already stated numerous reason why telling you to leave him will be a waste of time for us but I need to say it anyway... he will get worse. Once he has taken this step, it will get worse next time. He isn't going to change for the better. You need to leave him.

I skipped over the "what to do" part. Tell your family. Tell them you need to come "home." Ask for their emotional and financial assistance.

Go to a shelter if you need to.

Go to the police and get a protective order.

Go to an Attorney for file for divorce.

And, no, I wouldn't forgive him. He hurt you! Would you forgive a stranger who walked up to you, put his hands on you, called your names? Why is this any different?