nerdylove93
Apr 27, 2013, 06:47 PM
So here's the story, I met this guy through a friend in high school and the day I met him I was like "WOW, he's so good looking, but don't get your hopes up, he'll never like you."
After about a year of hanging out we became best friends. I really mean BEST FRIENDS! We were inseparable! One day he called me on the phone and asked me out. I still remember the call to this day. I told him we should probably just stay friends. The reason I did this was because I felt very insecure. I had never had a boyfriend before and I was too scared to date my best friend...
He asked me out again a few weeks later and I just told him "maybe". I remember asking him things like "If we were going out what would we be doing?" He said "We can just hold hands and stuff." That's HOW Naïve I WAS!
I later asked him out to prom and he said yes, but then I went to a therapist and told her I was having second thoughts about going to prom with him. It was basically because I thought he was too good for me (sounds CRAZY but it made sense in my mind at the time.) She told me to just remind him that we were going to prom together as "friends". It was stupid advice. She's not my therapist anymore...
We did go to prom together and it was a great night. He was the best prom date I could have asked for.
As time went on he gave up trying to ask me out but we still remained best friends, though later during the summer I began developing stronger feelings for him. I decided I was going to ask him out but before I did he came out to everyone saying he was GAY!
A few months after that he got his first boyfriend. He was a nice dude and I started to think “HEY, I should just move on because if he has a boyfriend he CLEARLY wont be interested in a girl like me anymore.” But while the two of them were going out I had an odd feeling he was starting to like me again. He would spend more time with me than with his boyfriend when we had group get togethers. Needles to say their relationship ended VERY quickly.
So it has been 2 years since then. We both go to different colleges now but we still speak occasionally and we hang out a lot during the summer. Also, neither of us has been in a serious relationship with anyone else since, this is one reason why I still hold hope for us being together one day.
OH! I forgot to mention we went to a nightclub together last year. We were getting real drunk and we started grinding each other on the dance floor. Later during the car ride home he apparently wanted to make out with me but I just laughed it off and said “Nah!”. That's what my friends told me anyway, my memory of that night isn't all that sharp...
I haven't seen him face to face in 5 months. I think this is the longest time we've spent apart. I feel his absence has made my heart yearn for him more, you know? I’m starting to believe that we were made for each other :x (too bad God didn't give me a penis... )
He will be coming back home for the summer next week. What should I do? Should I just remain friends with him or should I tell him about my feelings and apologize for the way I had rejected him in high school? (or should we both just get really drunk again and see where that leads us? LOL)
After about a year of hanging out we became best friends. I really mean BEST FRIENDS! We were inseparable! One day he called me on the phone and asked me out. I still remember the call to this day. I told him we should probably just stay friends. The reason I did this was because I felt very insecure. I had never had a boyfriend before and I was too scared to date my best friend...
He asked me out again a few weeks later and I just told him "maybe". I remember asking him things like "If we were going out what would we be doing?" He said "We can just hold hands and stuff." That's HOW Naïve I WAS!
I later asked him out to prom and he said yes, but then I went to a therapist and told her I was having second thoughts about going to prom with him. It was basically because I thought he was too good for me (sounds CRAZY but it made sense in my mind at the time.) She told me to just remind him that we were going to prom together as "friends". It was stupid advice. She's not my therapist anymore...
We did go to prom together and it was a great night. He was the best prom date I could have asked for.
As time went on he gave up trying to ask me out but we still remained best friends, though later during the summer I began developing stronger feelings for him. I decided I was going to ask him out but before I did he came out to everyone saying he was GAY!
A few months after that he got his first boyfriend. He was a nice dude and I started to think “HEY, I should just move on because if he has a boyfriend he CLEARLY wont be interested in a girl like me anymore.” But while the two of them were going out I had an odd feeling he was starting to like me again. He would spend more time with me than with his boyfriend when we had group get togethers. Needles to say their relationship ended VERY quickly.
So it has been 2 years since then. We both go to different colleges now but we still speak occasionally and we hang out a lot during the summer. Also, neither of us has been in a serious relationship with anyone else since, this is one reason why I still hold hope for us being together one day.
OH! I forgot to mention we went to a nightclub together last year. We were getting real drunk and we started grinding each other on the dance floor. Later during the car ride home he apparently wanted to make out with me but I just laughed it off and said “Nah!”. That's what my friends told me anyway, my memory of that night isn't all that sharp...
I haven't seen him face to face in 5 months. I think this is the longest time we've spent apart. I feel his absence has made my heart yearn for him more, you know? I’m starting to believe that we were made for each other :x (too bad God didn't give me a penis... )
He will be coming back home for the summer next week. What should I do? Should I just remain friends with him or should I tell him about my feelings and apologize for the way I had rejected him in high school? (or should we both just get really drunk again and see where that leads us? LOL)