My family has always been dysfunctional since I could breathe. My mom does nothing but curse and tell us to "shut the up" although I hate cursing I do it myself and I hate how she talks cause all she does is curse. She will rip us apart and tell us everything we do wrong and complain non stop. My father is abusive physically and emotionally. He calls me and my 11 yr old sister idiots, retards, fat asses, losers etc. anything negative hell say he is sick in the head. My younger sister is starting to act out and be disrespectful and rude but I get blamed for it because I was the same way anything I do I get criticized and put down. My sister is afraid of my dad and that he will hit her yet she loves being with him and he hates me and not her. Me and my sister tend to fight a lot we call each other terrible things and get physical and put each other down. I'm sick of living this way. I want to help and better myself and sister but Im not sure how to because its toxic with my family and they're hurting us. I want to be close with my sister but she hates me I tend to take my anger out of others and I don't realize my strengths but when we fight I really hurt her and I don't mean to I feel guilty and sad afterwards I need help I don't know what to do anymore

If you have the option I would suggest seeing a social worker or MFT about this as they specialize in dealing with these kind of things. Don't worry a lot of people go through this and have a similar situations, you'll make it through. I wish you the best of luck.