anon21
Apr 1, 2013, 04:35 AM
Please give me an advice I do not know who to talk about this.
I'm 19 years old diagnosed with TB lymph nodes and I have this big lump on my right side of my neck and it is really swollen. I am taking a 6 month TB medication and I'm already on my 2nd month. I am in pain everyday I could not move faster as it will get my neck more swollen and bigger.
I am having this problem few weeks ago and I noticed myself that Ive changed. I get mad easily when I get angry I don't talk to anyone and remain quiet. When I get angry and get to the limit I cnt control myself & break things even if its hurting myself it feels like I don't care what's gon happen next I want all the hatred & emotions out. Then il cry then il feel better.
In my head I never have remorse on breaking stuff but I just can't control it, after it happened il cry & make myself calm.
I am getting worse and there is no one that can help me Just 2 days ago I went to the hospital and had my hand stitched cause my girlfriend and I had a fight and I cnt control myself when I punched the mirror lots of times it shattered into pieces and I still kept punching it cause of anger.
Plus, I am having a relationship problem with my parents. I feel really depress.
I am really depress, Anger management does not help at all!
Im in pain everyday, sometimes I loose faith in God that I will never be back to normal and have this TB forever.
No one understand what I am going tru, no one understand how pain I am having everyday on my neck with this big swollen lump.
I could not control myself when I get angry I always break stuff and I will end up hurting myself by breaking things.
At home I want my surroundings quiet when my parents talk to me and tell some negative words I go to my room and cry.
Im sorry for the long details of this message, I just don't know who to talk to. :(
I'm 19 years old diagnosed with TB lymph nodes and I have this big lump on my right side of my neck and it is really swollen. I am taking a 6 month TB medication and I'm already on my 2nd month. I am in pain everyday I could not move faster as it will get my neck more swollen and bigger.
I am having this problem few weeks ago and I noticed myself that Ive changed. I get mad easily when I get angry I don't talk to anyone and remain quiet. When I get angry and get to the limit I cnt control myself & break things even if its hurting myself it feels like I don't care what's gon happen next I want all the hatred & emotions out. Then il cry then il feel better.
In my head I never have remorse on breaking stuff but I just can't control it, after it happened il cry & make myself calm.
I am getting worse and there is no one that can help me Just 2 days ago I went to the hospital and had my hand stitched cause my girlfriend and I had a fight and I cnt control myself when I punched the mirror lots of times it shattered into pieces and I still kept punching it cause of anger.
Plus, I am having a relationship problem with my parents. I feel really depress.
I am really depress, Anger management does not help at all!
Im in pain everyday, sometimes I loose faith in God that I will never be back to normal and have this TB forever.
No one understand what I am going tru, no one understand how pain I am having everyday on my neck with this big swollen lump.
I could not control myself when I get angry I always break stuff and I will end up hurting myself by breaking things.
At home I want my surroundings quiet when my parents talk to me and tell some negative words I go to my room and cry.
Im sorry for the long details of this message, I just don't know who to talk to. :(