Today I'm considering going to kill myself. It sounds stupid and selfish & pointless I know.
But the problems I've faced just aren't going away and it feels like 2013 is going to be even worse than 2012, my mum tried to kill herself last summer and out of the five children she has she chose to tell me, someone who has already lost their dad at a young age. And what's worse is she doesn't even care or think driving in a police car, and scooping her up off a field floor affected me. And to tell you the truth I thought it didn't affect me, how wrong am I. Ill tell you the truth I'm screaming for someone to notice me and how broken I am but it seems the only people I love always leave. My relationship with my boyfriend is breaking down and there's nothing I can do about it, my mum is neglecting my little brothers and she won't listen to anyone that she's doing it. I want to stay to protect them, but I just can't anymore I really ing can't. I've never felt so helpless in all my life. I don't know why I'm writing this it just looks self indulgent and pathetic but hey maybe that's what I am.

I'm not going to give you the attention of it but just think of all the people who have died in terrorist attacks, car crashes and all those surcumstances, they wish even if your life is crap that they could have it. Don't waist it.

I'm not going to give you the attention of it but just think of all the people who have died in terrorist attacks, car crashes and all those surcumstances, they wish even if your life is crap that they could have it. Don't waist it.

I'm not asking for you attention or your sympathy, some people just aren't
Made to cope and I'm one. I'd gladly give my soul for every person who's life has been cut short

UJ2M, PLEASE, that is just about the worst thing you can say to someone who is going through what this young woman is going through.

Loser123, how old are you? You really need to call social services, child protective services, whatever it is called where you live (calling your mother mum sounds like somewhere in the UK?) Come back and tell us more about yourself. I wouldn't advise having a boyfriend while you deal with this - do you have a best friend? How old are your siblings? What does your mother do with her day?

You are not a loser, or pathetic, just caught up and overwhelmed at the moment. Angry frustrated, and maybe isolated with the wrong people. Between mom, family and a boyfriend... yeah not exactly a party right. A family doctor can help, and feel free to lay it all out to us here as we listen well, even if we can't change things.

You sure could use a better positive female role model to copy and learn from because the one you have ain't working well. Reject completely whatever you see her doing. She needs her own help, and its not you. You may want to help, but you cannot. Being powerless can be frustrating but if you reach out to a positive person, you will get the right attention you need.

Teacher, doctor,or preacher,or all of them. That's just a start and anything has to be better than depending on a young immature boyfriend to save you.He has issues too. Most young people do, old ones too. He can barely save himself.

As I posted in your thread about your boyfriend... you are not a loser at all. The people around you may be losers, your boyfriend is definitely a loser, but you are not.

I wish you could hold out and see that things will get better if you just push through.