I went back to school after working in the financial services industry for 20 years. I just finished the basic science courses (3.5 GPA) , took the MCAT (which I scored low) and applied to Medical Schools. I have not been invited for an interview for any of the schools. I'm trying to get the motivation to study for the MCAT again, but I'm feeling burnt out. I stopped working from financial services 2 years ago and started working various jobs and stopped working from a Pharmacy as a technician last year. My parents are sending me some money to get by while I'm in school, but now I'm out of school. My plan was to get into Medical School, but now is seeming more challenging than I thought. I have volunteered in several hospitals and clinics, also shadowed various physicians, as well as trained in the Emergency Room.
I also broke up with my girlfriend of a year about 7 months ago (she is much younger than I am, she's college aged). Before her, I dated women closer to my age. I thought I would be over her by now, but I still thing about her almost every day. After the breakup, about a week and a half later, we had a couple of long talks, but she didn't want to get back together. At first we skyped for a while, then no contact. I have tried every other month to contact her by phone, text, email but no response. She did contact me the week I finished my courses, but just to ask for her kuerig coffee maker back. I tried dating women closer to my age a few times, but it hasn't been working. I was married once about 9 years ago and divorced after 4 years.
I have very few friends and contact with my family is minimal. It was my sister that suggested I break up with my ex-girlfriend after I began constantly asking her for advice. After the break-up, my contact with family is minimal, they are living on the west coast of the country, and I live on the east coast.
I just tried to take a practice exam for MCAT and did poorly, (didn't care I guess).

Now the holidays are coming up, no one to spend it with, I feel so sad sometimes. I try to run or go to the gym every day and been eating healthy foods. I know I have to either get into Medical School, PA school or get a job as a Paramedic or Medical Assistant, but my motivation is so low. If not, I guess I have to get some kind of job.
Sorry for all the details, I've just been "going through the motions" of living since the breakup, just surviving. Either that, or after getting out of school ( I've been taking course for the last 2 years, after not being in school for over 20 year, graduated from a university 20 yrs ago). After getting out of school, I've been applying to medical schools and been turned down. So I feel rejected, on top of that, rejection from ex girlfriend. I just feel like I'm barely surviving, going into the holidays feeling lonely.
I know I have to just make it through to Jan 2, 2013 and eventually thing will get better. But what an emotional rollercoaster ride I have been going through. I had all the hope in the world before with a new girlfriend, and thinking I would get into med school, now all hope is almost gone.
I guess I have to face reality, my chances of medical school are slim, and I don't have a girlfriend/wife I have no job and I'm getting older. I eventually have to settle for what ever work I can find, hopefully meet someone where there is a mutual understanding and keep living until I can't anymore.

Any thoughts, guidance, advice, cheering or slap in the face up would be appreciated.

Old, lonely and broke