I'm always suspicious of my boyfriend. We've been together 2 years now (don't live together). I know he loves me to pieces but I don't feel the same. He's always so secretive about everything he does. He expects me to communicate but yet he doesn't tell me everything. I know he still talks to his (crazy) ex wife but of course he denies it. I know that because he's txtd me accidentally when I KNOW for a fact it was for her. One text read: 'And I still loved you too'... I know that wasn't for me because we were chatting but not about anything to do with that. And I'm not sure we even loved each other yet because we were just new. Then I saw a pic of her and their son on his phone (her tits half hanging out) and he tried to deny that he put it there! Really dude? Who the hell else would? Anyway, when our relationship started, he told me sort of in a drunken stupor, that he USE to like tall blondes. Ummmmm... dude... I'm a short brunette? He denies saying that to me. I DON'T LIE ABOUT CRAP LIKE THAT!! When he sees a blonde I swear he gets whiplash trying to check her out. Yes, I am jealous, was never this bad until I met him :-(
So yeah, that's it in a nutshell. I've called him out on the tall blonde comment and said, 'no way I wouldn't say that!' Well... ya did.

I know he loves me to pieces but I don't feel the same.

This one part of your post is all I needed to read in order to give you advice.

You don't love him, you don't trust him, so why are you with him?

This one part of your post is all I needed to read in order to give you advice.

You don't love him, you don't trust him, so why are you with him?

Let me rephrase that, I do love him, just not as much as he loves me. I keep hoping the trust part will change but it's not. He's just so damn secretive it drives me nuts.

Let me rephrase that, I do love him, just not as much as he loves me. I keep hoping the trust part will change but it's not. He's just so damn secretive it drives me nuts.

Bottom line, you can't change who someone is. If you're sticking around, hoping he'll change, you're wasting your time. You either love him the way he is, or you find someone that can give you what you want or need.