hearbroken
Oct 16, 2012, 03:06 AM
Moved to its own question.
Hello I'm new to this forum.
My boyfriend is the best guy I ever knew, he has been there for me in every circumstance and I've tried to do the same. We are separated by geo differences but bbm and phone calls were always helpful. I came home after my studies and he was still in university. Everything was going good.
Until one day he wanted to go back home and pursue an internship which is taking a lot of his time. We did have a couple of arguments, really bad ones and although he is very calm and prefers not talking when he get angry, I have to vent it out and I say things I would never mean but then it obviously is very hurtful. This happened when he was leaving for home and ever since then he has not been in proper touch.
When I needed him he just vanished that got me angrier, he had problems but I failed to see. I was so soaked in my sorrow and anger that how could he just leave. And it's been 2 months that's I've been brooding. He used to say that things will be friends but right now I can't give you time. All I wanted was him to show me some love and I would have lasted. He ignoring me and talking rash just made it more worse for me. I cried a lot and he got sick of it. When I realized that I should give him his space it was too late now he says that nothing will ever get back to normal. He asks me to forget him. Sometimes I think that all this happened because of the bad things I said to him and I suffocated him. I don't know how to get him back. I've apologized so many times :( my health has deteriorated I am not happy anymore. He says he doesn't hate me but that he has changed and now he cannot be who he was before because life is different for him now.
I'm all confused. I don't know I just can't get over him. I would love to have him back as a friend but is it too much to ask? I don't know how to not ask him questions regarding this decision. He took. All on messaging. He didn't even bother to call and tell me this. How do I even express how sorry I am? I've written him so many emails every time I feel guilty of hurting him. I write one. Asking for forgiveness. It has all turned against me. Please advise :( I am a Sagittarian and he is a Piscean
Hello I'm new to this forum.
My boyfriend is the best guy I ever knew, he has been there for me in every circumstance and I've tried to do the same. We are separated by geo differences but bbm and phone calls were always helpful. I came home after my studies and he was still in university. Everything was going good.
Until one day he wanted to go back home and pursue an internship which is taking a lot of his time. We did have a couple of arguments, really bad ones and although he is very calm and prefers not talking when he get angry, I have to vent it out and I say things I would never mean but then it obviously is very hurtful. This happened when he was leaving for home and ever since then he has not been in proper touch.
When I needed him he just vanished that got me angrier, he had problems but I failed to see. I was so soaked in my sorrow and anger that how could he just leave. And it's been 2 months that's I've been brooding. He used to say that things will be friends but right now I can't give you time. All I wanted was him to show me some love and I would have lasted. He ignoring me and talking rash just made it more worse for me. I cried a lot and he got sick of it. When I realized that I should give him his space it was too late now he says that nothing will ever get back to normal. He asks me to forget him. Sometimes I think that all this happened because of the bad things I said to him and I suffocated him. I don't know how to get him back. I've apologized so many times :( my health has deteriorated I am not happy anymore. He says he doesn't hate me but that he has changed and now he cannot be who he was before because life is different for him now.
I'm all confused. I don't know I just can't get over him. I would love to have him back as a friend but is it too much to ask? I don't know how to not ask him questions regarding this decision. He took. All on messaging. He didn't even bother to call and tell me this. How do I even express how sorry I am? I've written him so many emails every time I feel guilty of hurting him. I write one. Asking for forgiveness. It has all turned against me. Please advise :( I am a Sagittarian and he is a Piscean